tomorrow I get to see my ds for the first time in 6 yrs

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www.mumsnet.com/Talk/miscarriage/1472607-advice-on-seeing-pictures-of-my-beautiful-17wk-gestation-son.

See above thread. Tomorrow is the day. Im going to the hospital to collect the photos. DH has gone out tonight so im on my own and understanderbly feeling very anxious and a little unsure. Im also a bit excited about it.

Its been 6 yrs this august since I mc with him and I have continually wondered what he was like. Especially since watching DS grow up and change and become his own person.

Feeling a bit lonely about it all as dh doesnt want anything to do with it. He has never stopped me and always supported me but I just feel once again im back in the unique situation that nobody else understands

www.mumsnet.com/Talk/miscarriage/1472607-advice-on-seeing-pictures-of-my-beautiful-17wk-gestation-son

thread

Good luck for tomorrow. Will there be anyone with you?

No im going on my own.

Oh how lovely cupcake. I have the most beautiful photos of my 19 week son (gestational weeks) and I have proudly shown anyone who has asked for the past ten years.

They are a reminder to me that he was real. And remind me why I often feel so sad that he isn't here.

Much love and luck for tomorrow.

I'm sorry you feel so lonely.
Good luck. I hope seeing him brings you some kind of inner peace. I was going to say closure, but I don't know if that's the right word, but hopefully it will complete the grieving process for you.

DCSsunhill - thank you. I really hope it will help me find some peace with the whole situation. There isnt a day goes by that I dont think about him and I miss him more than I ever thought possible.

Its so hard when I just want to talk about him and remember him but it seems impossible as I have no physical reference to him. Also dh doesnt cope well with it so I tend not to. Its not forgotten but he knows im going tomorrow and has said nothing.

Thank you Isla. I really hope so as well, I just hope it doesnt make things worse. Ive struggled with this ever since it happened. I hope it will be the missing piece.

Hope you find some sort of peace tomorrow, xxxx

I think it's great that you are so positive, and yes the missing piece is the perfect way of summing it up.
Sending you lots of love.

Whate the procedure - do they give you the envelope or will someone sit with you? Can you go into the hospital chapel with a box of kleenex?

You will now have a little face to talk to... that will be something very precious.

I hadnt thought about it in those terms frontpaw. Im meeting the miscarriage counsellor no idea what happens from then on. Its taken so much to get to this point, I wondered if I would ever get here, yet here I am.

Maybe I need to start and think about what I want to do. I dont even know if their in colour or black and white, how many of them etc.

xx

Thank you ladies. It was lovely to see my little man. He's home now

cupcake I'm so happy you decided to see your little boy! You will treasure his pictures forever! x

Glad it went well for you cupcake.

I'm so glad you got to see your boy