A month on and finding lossing my mum worse than ever

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I'm really struggling, i was ok..well not ok but the waves of all emotions were coming and then going hitting me hard but then felt a little better, but the last few days I have struggled beyond belief. Missing my mum so much, back to being in denial of how can it happen, she was 66 how did she have a severe stroke in her sleep fall into unconsciousness and not wake up :-((( I didn't see her that week but spoke to her loads and that day it happened spoke to her twice and had a laugh! :-(( I'm struggling bad, I'm very lathargic and can't stop crying and my head is every where, I feel Im struggling worse now!! :-((

Please tell me it gets easier..

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Thank you everyone for sharing your stories. This thread has been very helpful to me today. I lost my mum almost eight months ago and I had been doing all right but the last week or so I have almost gone back to stage one with the grief. I don't know what's triggered it and I don't feel able to talk to anyone about it in real life.

I too am also feeling it on behalf of my dad. We recently took him away on holiday with us and have loads of poignant photos of him on his own.

Oh hope the councilling helps your dad NB, im not sure wether my dad may well need that. Is it normal he is talking to her loads, pretending to hold her hand etc??

How have you been and everyone else on this thread?

I am struggling at the moment, its my dads birthday today and its soo hard to not have her around and enjoying it. :-(

My youngests birthday next week, god knows how ill get through that!!