10 years ? How can it be that long since I held my boy ?

[travellingwilbury]

I am not normally so vocal about this but I am feeling really shit today , my pfb died ten years ago today and I am really hurting .

He was 14 mths old and delicious , the dr told me he had a cold , I stupidly believed him , he died .

Part of me wants to go back to those early days when everyone still understood why I was red eyed and miserable .

I've also had a look at your profile. How gorgeous. Your other boys are gorgeous too.

I like your taste in books and films. I always put Truly, Madly Deeply on when I need a cry.
So sorry. x

Oh Wilbury, I am so so sorry about your DS1 . All your children look absolutely divine. I am shedding a little tear for you.

I couldn't read and not post. What a gorgeous little chap he was, what a lovely mop of hair!
I am soooo sorry he isn't here with you today, I can't imagine that a single day goes by without you thinking of him.
So sorry for your loss.

You are all so lovely , nest of vipers indeed .

I am mostly not a wreck , I mostly nod and smile and carry on but times like this are just rubbish , your comments have helped thank you .

he is beautiful TW.

i have nothing else to say except i am so sorry.

I'm so sorry xx

He is beautiful vicar , it just hurts , I am long enough down the road to know that I will feel calmer again but for now it just hurts .

It is nice to know that other people are aware of him now though .

travellingwilbury I'm listening to Only love can break your Heart and thinking of how beautiful your boy is. I have no words, it's just the biggest loss and I'm sending you love x

dear tw, I've only just seen this thread, and wanted to send you a big - somewhat belatedly. I didn't realise your boy was the nearly the same age as Mia, and that they both died so unexpectedly.

Please know that you are helping me so much by sharing your own pain and hurt, making me feel it is ok to feel what I do, and giving me the courage to keep going.

It doesn't bring him back though. You know that, and I am starting to see that. But holding all the pain inside, yet continuing to go through life...

it is so unfair that our babies aren't here with us.

Ah TW what a gorgeous, smiley boy. He clearly had a lovely life, although far far too short.

((hugs))

Thank you both of you x

He did have a lovely life , as did we . Just the hardest thing that he isn't here now .