Just got NIPT results, bad news. I'm devastated

[Ariel03]

Hi,
I have just got the call regarding my NIPT results. The baby has a 98% chance of having Down's.
This pregnancy was completely unplanned and a total shock, I'm 43 years old and split with my DP before I knew I was pregnant.
Even so, I am absolutely devastated and I can't stop crying.
Please don't judge me, but I already have 2 DCs with special needs and I don't think I could cope with a third, especially since I'm on my own.
I feel so guilty that I'm even considering ending this pregnancy . It's not something I believe in. I just don't think I can cope with another SEN child.
I have my dating scan tomorrow, which I know I'm just going to cry through the whole thing.
I've got a CVS booked for Wednesday and should get results by Friday.

I just need some hand holding and support please. I feel so alone.

Oh so sorry to hear this OP

Ariel, this is to acknowledge your heartbreak and to say I would never judge you or any other woman for perhaps making a decision that leads to termination.

I also have a child with special needs.

Im so sorry. You post of 16.37 was not there when I started my previous reply.

Im very sorry for your heartbreak.

I am so sorry Ariel

I'm so sorry, what a sad time, I hope your mum is with you.

Oh Ariel I can't find words that sound right so all I can add is am so sorry and offer you virtual hugs and an ear should you wish to have someone to talk too.xx

Horrible news Ariel... I am so very sorry xxx

Ariel I'm so sorry

Look after your sweetheart

I'm so sorry Ariel

So sorry for you and your girl OP.

So sorry for your loss Ariel

I'm so sorry for your loss x

Thank you everyone for your kind words.
I have been back at the hospital today as I completely freaked out about having an ERPC. So I've opted for medical management instead. I had my mifepristone today and have to go back Friday.
I'm still so tearful, which wasn't helped by a doctor saying to me "Well it wasn't a planned pregnancy, so it doesn't matter anyway" (that the baby has died) and that it's "Just one of those things ". I can't believe how judgemental and insensitive she was.
Thankfully the nurses were lovely.
Just sat here with my kids now feeling pretty crappy.

How utterly insensitive of that doctor. [Flowers]

I'm so sorry. Please don't listen to that doctor. This is your baby and you can feel as you feel, planned or not. and prayers for your beautiful little

What a stupid thing for the doctor to say - sounds like they're in the wrong job. I'm sorry you're having such a difficult time, I have been in a similar position and it was grim. Hug on tight xxx

Oh sweetheart. What a horrible, horrible thing to go through. Your head and heart must be all over the place but don't you for one second feel guilty. Women - especially mothers - will always be the ones to face excruciating life decisions, for the rest of time, compared to men. But it's also why we're made of strong stuff although I know you won't feel like that right now. Just rest this evening and call on some help in RL if you can. As a midwife you'll know the details of what's to come over the next 48 hours... is there anyone that can take the kids? Xxx

I'm sorry you were treated so insensitively Ariel no matter whether planned or not its still very distressing and the doctor should've known better than to say that(or should be in a dif dept)
Hope you have plenty RL support.big big hugs my love.and prayers said for you and all of your children incl your

Thanks capricorn, I've got the kids here tonight, but my parents are getting them ready for bed for me, bless them. They only live a couple of miles away, so I can call on them whenever I need.
My kids keep asking what's wrong with me, I'm not sure what to tell them as they're only 7 and 9

So sorry OP. for you and your little girl.

I have been in hospital since Friday morning. I've now had 4 lots of Misoprostal, a lot of pain and blood, but still haven't miscarried . If it doesn't happen tonight, I have to have scan tomorrow then go for surgery.
Feeling so fed up now. I really didn't think this would take so long.
Ariel xx

Ariel I'm so sorry that you are going through all this. It must be very hard. Hoping that you are home soon.

Hugs honey
Keep posting if it helps
Thinking of you.xx

You poor thing

Thank you everyone
I'm still in hospital. Had a scan today and nothing has changed, so I'm going for another round of medical management tomorrow. If that doesn't work, I have to go for surgery.
It just seems like my body is holding onto this baby. I've got milk in my breasts too, which is heartbreaking
Fingers crossed tomorrow will work xx