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Feeling like I want to hurt my baby

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Magicmoo89 · 31/01/2026 20:21

I feel disgusting even writing the title.

bit of information, my partner works away during the week and is currently on exercise for two, it’s just me and the baby during the week and his sleep has been horrendous. He’s 6 months and waking like a new born again, I know they have sleep regressions etc but I’m really struggling. I wasn’t even sure wether to write this because I am so so ashamed of myself and it makes me want to cry.. the other night at 3am he was crying for a bottle and I was making it up and he just wouldn’t stop crying.. I walked over put the bib around him and pulled on it and said is this what you want, he cried even more I then pushed the bottle really hard into his mouth when I was ready to feed him . I’m so disgusted with myself and I’m not really sure if this is postpartum depression or just me being a god right awful
person. Has anyone experienced anything like this? Although I’m not expecting anyone to have done anything so awful. A few things have happened like this and I’m starting to scare myself

OP posts:
Allatsea1980s · 31/01/2026 20:56

As others have said - you can just leave him to cry if he’s safe, warm and fed. I know that might sound awful but if you feel you might snap you need to take a step away, scream into a pillow, go to sleep. As long as baby is safe that’s ok. And he won’t be traumatised for life by being left to cry sometimes.

BeckyAMumsnet · 31/01/2026 21:17

Hi @Magicmoo89 thanks for posting, we're glad you've asked for support and we’re sorry you’re having such a difficult time. We know how tough this stage can be.

We’ve sent you a private message with some information about getting urgent support, as it sounds like you’re completely overwhelmed and in need of some help around you right now.

Best wishes from MNHQ.

CoralMumsnet · 31/01/2026 22:43

Hi all - we’re going to pause this thread to new replies overnight.
This is a very sensitive and potentially overwhelming situation, and we want to give things a chance to settle while OP gets some proper support in place.
Thanks for understanding.
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