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I spend every day angry or crying. I've got PND and I don't know what to do

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awfulmumshithead · 27/09/2011 15:29

I can't go to the doctor. I CAN'T.

I won't take tablets. I WON'T.

I shout at everyone. I can't cope. I can't sleep at night. I don't know if it's depression or if I'm going mad.

I'm a regular. I've changed my name.

I just want to kill myself. I'm supposed to be happy.

I think I can cope for a day or two and then something goes wrong like I lose something and it makes me so angry. It makes me so angry that I can't stop shaking. I shout at my husband and my baby. Then I get so upset that I slap myself in the face because I hate being alive and being such an awful person. Then I feel nothing. Then I just want to sleep. Maybe a day later I feel like I'll just magically fix everything only it always goes wrong and I get angry again.

My family would be better off without me. I know they would.

Please, please, please don't tell me to go to the doctor. I don't want anyone to know what a failure I am.

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HelenMumsnet · 28/09/2011 16:36

@pleasejustletmesaythis

I have been banned again. This time permanently. I have sent about five emails to Mumsnet begging you to just let you all know this but they're ignoring me. I've even sent them my phone number but they're ignoring me.

I've had seretonin syndrome and a severe panic attack after taking the AD. My doctor has given me an emergency prescription of valium and I am not to take ssri's ever again.

I just wanted to let you all know.

I'm going to get banned again now no doubt. I've just created two new accounts before I was able to post.

I'm beyond gutted that Mumsnet have treated me this way. If they want to ban me then that's their perogative but I desperately need support right now. I'm so sorry for whatever it is I've done.

Please please believe me that I did not make all this up and I really did have a bad reaction to the tablets. If the valium didn't work, I was going to have to have an ambulance called but thank god it kicked in.

Well this is likely the last time we'll speak. Thank you everyone for trying to help and sorry that I'm such a mess. I'll miss having Mumsnet.

Have you not received our mails? Do please check your inbox.

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HelenMumsnet · 28/09/2011 18:47

Hello.

Just to let you know that we have not banned the OP or accused her of being a troll.

We were having a good deal of trouble getting in touch with her today and, at one point, having exhausted all other avenues, we suspended her ability to post for a few moments in the hope that this might prompt her to mail us.

She's now mailed in - and is free to post again.

Many thanks for all your wonderful posts on this thread.

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HelenMumsnet · 28/09/2011 19:09

We're also going to move this thread into our Antenatal/Postnatal Depression topic - as that's probably a better place for it that AIBU.

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