As it says really - bit of a long post copied from another thread - just fishing for opinion!
Ok - here goes.
After weeks of trying to get things going I woke up having a contraction at 3am. Every 10-12 mins and woke DH as knew it was the real thing (DS was a painful and horrid induction with epidural that came out of back at the end without anyone believing that I was experiencing every bit of the pain of the last few contractions before delivery - could not get control over pain so ventous and forceps followed).
Anyway, contractions were fine, watched an episode of 'Cracker'! By 3.45 contractions were coming every 5 mins so phoned hospital who did normal paracetamol and bath speech, come in when you can't cope with the pain...
Called mum to come over and look after DS. She arrived at 4.45 by which time contractions every 2-3 mins and requiring more concentration to get through. The hospital is around 30 mins away so in the confusion we left - my mum probably should have stopped us leaving but she said afterwards that she just didn't realise how close to delivery she was as in her recollection of her own deliveries, contractions could go on like this for hours
Anyway, half way to hospital waters exploded, I was gripping the hand holdy thing... as we pulled into carpark in between contractions I was very clear with DH that I was not going to be able to get out of the car - said 'phone midwife - last no on phone and get them to come here'. He did this as he got out of the car. I could hear him say that we were outside A&E (we weren't, we were at the main entrance) Shouted at him that we weren't at A&E but he had run off. I felt down and felt the head, I had been pushing uncontrollably with every contraction since waters went), tipped onto my side, had another contraction and then started shouting DH's name without response - can remember being incredibly worried that DD was going to be born into my trouser leg!
Don't know how long I was on my own for but felt incredibly alone, never doubted my ability to birth my baby, knew that everything was going to be ok but just felt alone and not listened to - I had shouted that we weren't at A&E but DH had run off for help without hearing me, or listening to me
Anyway, midwives turned up, said we're going to get you out of the car, I said, head is here, they pulled my knickers and trousers off, contraction, delivered head in one push then delivered body with next contraction. Got out of car with knickers round ankles, one flip flop on and thanked god it was 5.25am and dark and nobody in car park!
DH ran off when we arrived because MW told him to(thinking he was at A&E to run in to get porter and wheelchair). Although, the labour and delivery was fine - feel it was a walk in the park compared to the induction with DS, really proud of doing it without pain relief, did it on my own to all intents as I would have delivered then with or without MWs, only needed 3 stitches for tear of episiotomy scar, have heeled really well, almost back to normal after 5.5 weeks. Have a lovely baby, feeds really well, sleeps well, DS is fine with her etc The problem is that I feel a bit annoyed with DH for running off and leaving me on my own - at the time I was probably in transition.
Would you be annoyed? AIBU?