To have checked my ds1's emails....and now feel so sad having found this email he sent his father....
Hi B,
I am hoping you get this email. Because there are a few things i need to say.
I am almost 11 yrs old now and for all different reasons I have not had you in my life. Sometimes because of me and sometimes because of you.
All through the years it is Mummy who has looked after me and in the last 3 1/2 years my Dad has as well.
I need you to understand that I feel now that I have done all i can to let you be my dad. You have always found reasons not to be there, but none of it matters anymore.
When we met a few months ago I wanted to tell you so many things but you did not even come to see me on your own you brought your girlfriend and her son who is the same age as me, do you know how that made me feel? It made me feel like you have replaced me without giving me the chance to know you. You don't understand how much it hurt me.
I asked you if my dad could adopt me and you have said yes. Ok that is what I want BUT you could have said no, you could have made me feel like you wanted me. instead you just gave up without any of that, you really made me feel the way i have for a long time....like you have never wanted me. Thank you DAD!! oh no sorry but thats not you is it? you are not the person who has taken care of me in the night while mummy had my brother, you were not the one wo stayed off of work to take me fishing, theme parks, come and see my plays, choir recitals, nothing at all, you were not the one who looked after me for the week my mummy was in hospital no that was my DAD not you , my FATHER....I understand now what people mean when they say anyone can be a father but only a real man can be a DAD, You are not a real man you are not a dad....or maybe you are just not to me.
I will never talk about you as if you are my dad or my father in fact i don't care where you are in life or what you do anymore, i hope you are happy with your make believe son.....maybe one day he and his mum will see you for what you really are SELFISH. You could not even pay for us to bowl when we met your GIRLFRIEND did....at least one of you cared enough.