To just disappear?This is serious.

[MumOfBaby]

Having a terrible time, as I have put on other threads. I want to just get on the train and disappear. Go and stay in a motel on my own.

DP and DS are my world. I can trust DP with DS implicitly. I just need some time to clear my head but I don't want to explain myself. I've hit the very lowest point of depression. Neither prozac or alcohol are touching this, and I considered taking an overdose tonight. For real.

AIBU? Or what?

hope your night away helps, let us allknow how you get on. Good that DP is going with you as he can help with confidence etc to say what you need to and show you have support,it really helps.

I know the alcohol is a temporary fix to blot out the pain etc, but long term therapy etc is what you need.

Don't mean to sound judgemental just concerned for a fellow mumsneter.

I wish I'd discovered this website when I was in the throws of my Depression, felt I was the only one and had no where to turn.

It's only in last few weeks I've been brave enough to post, as everyone seemed so friendly I assumed they knew each other.

I think I'm wrong but it's just we've all had similar experiences.

Forgot to say a quote which I learn through therapy, which helps me when the going is rough.

"I must be perfect" - why?
"People must be nice" - not everyone is
"The world must be nice" - it's not.
Also swap the word "must" with "should".

Hope this helps a little

MumOfBaby - I've just picked up this thread and wanted to send my thoughts out to you. I hope you enjoy your night and are following some of the amazing advice MN has given to you? I'm praying things look brighter for you soon

Mumofbaby just seen this thread. Just to say I'm thinking of you and hope you enjoyed your night with your DP.

MumOfBaby, just wanted to add, I had my first bout of PND in Cumbria and the care I received from the mental health team was fantastic. Don't be afraid to contact them. Your GP will not judge.
At one of my lowest points I rang the Samaritans mid-panic attack. It helped, it did not take away how I was feeling, but it helped me take the next positive step.
I will echo the other posts, please do not be afraid to get help. Don't be afraid to lean on those closest to you.
Take care.
Rx

I'm glad your mum was able to have DS so you and DP could have a nice time. How old is DS? I bet he's the light of your life aren't they all.

i really hope youre ok mate, i agree that its a good plan to see more of your doc and be really honest and if youre not pleased with response change your doc, also this might sound bizarre but have you tried fish oils?

i have bipolar 2 and am now on medication for it but have suffered for years on and off with depression which was horrible, i felt like id never be happy again (except always loved and adored my son) and nothing could help - luckily i have a mainly supportive partner and a heavenly son that i could also never leave, but i started taking fish oils, and i really dont think ive ever felt better, i really mean it, i have gone from severely depressed to LIFE IS GOOOOOD! in a month or so, PLEASe try it, you can take them along with other meds, i went to a site called xtend life who i wld recommend as they were really helpful. they have changed my life entirely and life excites me now whereas before i sometimes wondered how the hell id get through it..

take care and please try them you wont regret it i promise.. they are well known for helping with depression xxxx

Drinking alcohol whilst on prozac can make the drugs have a reverse effect, don't drink on them and see your GP asap for an alternative, you will get through this, you have to keep trying for your Ds xxxx