Not wishing to takt over the whole of mumsnet but just wondered....
My life is falling apart (mostly my own doing) but now my mum (who despite the fact I could throttle her with my bare hands alot of the time, I love dearly) is going to have her leg removed on Monday as she is a type 1 diabetic, has blocked this that and the other, smokes 30 a day, thinks any veg is evil and chocolate bics are a breakfast food.
There is a 40 % chance she will die on the table, a big chance she will die from post op infction, and if she makes it will need 24/7 care for the next however long till her heart packs up from all the above.
I have been to the hospital most of today, had to tell my 12 and 8 year old nanna is poorly and so on, and now I am going to drink the half bottle of vodka I have, play mama mia too loud, cry, throw up then go to bed.
8 year old is with Daddy, 12 year old is in bed so no one to see mother being a drunk.
Tomorrow I will deal with the hospital and so on but tonight I want to be selfish and wallow in self pity....is that ok.