Following on thread of what things irritate you, what things do you not like about yourself ...

[Bumblelion]

I might be repeating somet of the things mentioned on the irritation thread but, reading some of it, I thought "oh dear, that applies to me".

Being honest, what do I not like about myself.

Sometimes I am selfish and only think of myself - putting myself first without thinking of consequences.

Always seem to be late (although not for work now trains are running 10 minutes earlier!). I hate being late (and my eldest DD seems to be following in my footsteps). e.g. invited to a 'do' (wedding (even my own), christening (even my childrens'), party, etc.) I always give myself enough time to get myself (and the children if they are invited) ready ... but for some unknown reason I seem to go into a time-warp and whereas I gave myself, say, 2 hours to get everything done, suddenly I find I have 10 minutes left to get myself showered, wash hair, dry hair, get dressed, do make-up, etc. It is not that I meant to be late but it does seem I have a 'lateness' fairy following me, thinking I have all the time in the world whereas I don't. Time just seems to run away with itself.

I also say, for example, (last night) tonight will be an early night for DS (after having 2 sleepovers at the weekend) and he needs an early night. Next thing I know it is 9:45 ... okay, we did have secondary school open evening and didn't get home until 8:15 but I can't believe it took me 1.5 hours for him to shower (10 minutes) and me to cook dinner (quicky one - pizza in the oven). Probably took him 10 minutes (if that) to eat dinner. Next thing, I like to sit down with him and talk about the school (on other thread I mentioned he was in a new form with NO children from his primary school - all changed now!) but, then suddenly, I look at the time and it si 9:45. So much for an early night!!

A real lack of Empathy with other peoples feelings sometimes.

A child at times. A streak of the cur.

Pettyness.

A real fear of meeting new people - I generally don't talk to people I don't know - apart from on here but these are just voices from my computer not real people!!

Hmm I really make myself sound a prince among men!!!

Now this is the thread I have been waiting for!!

I am soo judgemental, and I am usually proved wrong but does that stop me? Nooo

I worry about everything too much.

I am irritable with my dh.

I am crap at returning phone calls/texts/emails.

I loathe most social situations.

I am sure there is more...

I'm just a fuck up really lol, I have zero self esteem, I have spent so long not really talking to anyone I have lost the knack.

I'm really fat and don't really give a crap about my appearance (probably hindering the getting on with people thing).

Never really know what I think about anything, I second, third and fourth guess myself and tie myself up in knots.

Don't really feel capable of taking decisive action and changing my life, feel adrift since my Mum died

Find it hard to committ and stick to things, fear of failure, and also oddly fear of success. I hate criticism too, sends me into a tailspin.

well where do i start??
i spend my days making my DH feel bad for and refuse to apologise for ANYTHING i say or do.
i am super stubborn (see above)
i yell at DD too much
i have a burning need for my friends and family to be totally devoid of imperfection but feel i should be accepted with all of mine intact.
i feel like a big fatty alot but cant be arsed to do anything about it.
i secretly wish my friends wouldnt tell me their problems as i feel an urge to obsess for them over their various boyfriend problems/sexual indiscressions.
i HATE watching emmerdale but want my DH to not feel he is hogging the TV after he gets home from work even though secretly i think he does.
i have come out of work recently and have hardly made any effort to find a suitable job and have told my DH that i spend every waking hour looking for a job (ssshhhhh)
i give up too easily and get very bored with routine and can see my DD going that way too.
i will gladly sit up on MN for hours with my DH asleep on the couch so it will be too late to have a bit when we go to bed as he has to be up in a few hours (i know thats not nice but as you can see neither am i!!)
i sometimes put others before my family.
i can be very mean and sarcastic.
i enjoy picking people to bits who i see on the street (its like a sport looking out of the car window) when its really me i am tearing apart in my head.
i feel like people dont like me when i meet new people and as a result i am quiet and therefore dont gain new friends easily.
should i go on or end it all now??....
xx ei xx

When I'm out with a group of friends I get carried away and talk too much, and feel really witty and funny at the time, then next day I feel crap, and feel like I was OTT and noone else could get a word in edgeways

I hate hate hearing my voice on tape- I sound like a 5 yo, and it sounds a bit nasal-yeuch!

I am sooo irritable sometimes, and I expect a lot from people

If I fall out with someone (usually DH!) I use things I know they are vulnerable about to hurt them- eg I know DH has a bit of a chip on his shoulder about not being as academically smart as me, so I will say snidy things that imply he's thick. Or I'll tell him he's just like his mum/ dad! I can be really nasty like that

I too am always late. I never mean to be, and I always strive to be on time, but something always knocks me off course and we're late again, and I get really harassed and stressy

I'm impossible in the mornings! I am a cantankerous old sow until I get a cup of coffee

I've also got a temper, and I can scare myself with just how angry I can feel. I've been known to go and throw things at walls, pull doors off the hinges etc.

There are loads more things I hate, but even just seeing those ones has made me feel bad!! And the big bag of haribo currently sloshing about in my big belly is not helping my self-esteem much!

A streak of self pity as wide as a whale's wake.

Shouty. Poor DS.

Can't hide my feelings.

Not good at letting go (probably related to the streak of self pity).

Procrastination.

oh, and misanthropy. i feel humans are overrated.

abstract mouse, sorry about your mum.

This thread has certainly made me feel better about myself in the sense that I'm not the only one...

I have ridiculously high standards for everyone which I couldn't reach myself.

I'm really quick to judge.

I'm a terrible procrastinator.

I always think that the future will somehow be better without actually doing anything to make it better.

And I am terrible at spelling and grammar!

i'm appallingly cutting and sarcastic, can't stand thick people and just cannot cover this up
also.....piss me off properly, and
i
will
get
you
if
i
have
to
wait
years

oh yes i will
i never forget.....i should, but i can't

When I drink too much I tell people deeply personal information about myself .
Luckily I don't get our often!

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oooh bumdiddley that reminds me, I do that to....whether they like it or not and I always regret it the next day

Worse still Muthhubbard, my last drunken outpouring was to work colleagues...Luckily, they were really drunk too and haven't mentioned anything...