Following on thread of what things irritate you, what things do you not like about yourself ...

[Bumblelion]

I might be repeating somet of the things mentioned on the irritation thread but, reading some of it, I thought "oh dear, that applies to me".

Being honest, what do I not like about myself.

Sometimes I am selfish and only think of myself - putting myself first without thinking of consequences.

Always seem to be late (although not for work now trains are running 10 minutes earlier!). I hate being late (and my eldest DD seems to be following in my footsteps). e.g. invited to a 'do' (wedding (even my own), christening (even my childrens'), party, etc.) I always give myself enough time to get myself (and the children if they are invited) ready ... but for some unknown reason I seem to go into a time-warp and whereas I gave myself, say, 2 hours to get everything done, suddenly I find I have 10 minutes left to get myself showered, wash hair, dry hair, get dressed, do make-up, etc. It is not that I meant to be late but it does seem I have a 'lateness' fairy following me, thinking I have all the time in the world whereas I don't. Time just seems to run away with itself.

I also say, for example, (last night) tonight will be an early night for DS (after having 2 sleepovers at the weekend) and he needs an early night. Next thing I know it is 9:45 ... okay, we did have secondary school open evening and didn't get home until 8:15 but I can't believe it took me 1.5 hours for him to shower (10 minutes) and me to cook dinner (quicky one - pizza in the oven). Probably took him 10 minutes (if that) to eat dinner. Next thing, I like to sit down with him and talk about the school (on other thread I mentioned he was in a new form with NO children from his primary school - all changed now!) but, then suddenly, I look at the time and it si 9:45. So much for an early night!!

Oh, I'm also a real bitch at work. Unpredictably so, so sometimes (when I'm feeling normal) I'll be chatty and responsive, and most other times I will feel so bitter/angry/depressed/antisocial that when people try and interact with me I snap at them and make it obvious that I want them to go away.

Sometimes this bothers me.

(pagwatch It would never happen. you would never say the things that make me hold grudges)

2shoes
but that is only because I'm scared of you and your grudges

yeah I can really imagine you calling my dd a s%%%%........not

I am fat and I hate that half of it is due to being lazy/not motivated and the other half due to health and medication (which is something else I don't like about myself).

my lack of confidence and low self esteem

i get irritated and too stressed about things like mess and nag my DP too much

the list could go on....

I can be a complete bitch. My friends say that I could win Gold medals if the Olympics had Sarcasm events.
My self confidence is about - (read as inch from the floor. There is a pic of me on profile for you to pass comment!)
And my imagination/jealousy can be unreal and very unfounded. That's tied in with the confidence.
I have to put myself down. Do it first so no-one else can.

Maybe I should have posted in Mental health...

I'm paranoid - at least I hope I am...

I overthink everything - every action, every motivation, every possible subplot - it's exhausting. Actual mountains I deal with easily but molehills are my undoing.

Great thread!

Are all of us on here like Anna888 deep down? I certainly am... MN is so great in that respect! I couldn't be having this conversation anywhere else...

So many recognisable traits in lots of people's posts above.

Rubbish self-esteem despite being actually really quite good at a couple of things

Always putting myself and -as a consequence- DP down

but also...

Bossy
Can be a bit abrupt at work when I need stuff doing
Prefer to have things go MY way, thank you
Almost obsessively risk averse
...
I could go on...

pmsl at Unquiet Dad and Nigella.

I am very impatient with those I feel have no excuse, ie I'm nice to the very old and very young.

I can be manipulative.

I am very envious of others and I HATE it in myself.

Also I have huge feet.

I am judgemental

I see the negative befoe the positive and am cynical

I am impatient

I am crap up getting up in the morning

My voice. I wish it was deep and low and sexy - like Mariella frostrup or Joanna Lumley. Instead it has a horrible pitch and I sound like I need to clear my throat.

i dont think before i speak

i cant be a bit hurtfull

i am greedy

i always put things off

I'm a hypocrite and a scaredy cat and I'm arsey and bad tempered and I'm extraordinarily VAIN and I'm impatient and Im' a back seat driver and I rush into somethings and procrastinate about others (usually the wrong order).

and I have a fat tummy from having 2 babies but the rest of me is normal so I look like a professional darts player (no offence)

I think I am manipulative, without meaning to be. Is that possible? I always seem to get my way though, and surely that must be down to manipulating situations to my advantage?

I'm also very impatient of many many things, and with many many people. Cannot stand idiocy, vanity, ignorance, rudeness, etc etc... and can be very dismissive if friends or acquaintances are showing these traits at any given time.
Dithering also drives me up the wall, indecision,....

I'm very hard to please, a bit of a perfectionist,..... and in fact think I may suffer from somewhat of a superiority complex when I read all that back!!

i cry far too easily. and sob, and cannot hold a conversation. hate this.

i'm very persistent in nature.dh finds it annoying sometimes.
i am v sensitive, get upset too easily.

I have a tendancy to gossip

I am fat and lazy and eat too much

Low self esteem (see above)

Shout at kids

Talk too loud on the phone

Hate getting out of bed

And the thing I hate the most - I blush incredibily easily. Not just normal blushing but full on fry an egg on my face type blushing, not just .

I have a touch of the obsessive, and cannot seem to simple things like say...buy a lamp, without researching every possibility in order to achieve perfection.

I am a hopeless optimist, and this sometimes equals stubborn fool .

I care too much about what people think of me; I wish I could just not give a crap but I do.

I snipe at DH far too much.
And sometimes I get cross and all huffy with DD, and then feel so guilty.
But most of all I get too REALLY irritated by silly little things that really don't matter, like someone pushing in front of me to get on the bus

I can be a bit stand-offish but i don't like giving too much info until i know i can trust someone
Am very critical of others and especially of myself
Worry too much of what other people think of me
Worry generally!
Put other people's needs before my own, then become a martyr.
Don't say whats on my mind, until i've analysed it in minute detail, then it's too late and people think i'm too quiet!
Feel frumpy and that i'll never lose the baby fat!
Hate my teeth, giving me loads of trouble, would rather have them all taken out and have some nice dentures!
That's all i can think of for now.

I'm a perfectionist and get stressed out when things(ie. me) go/get things wrong.

I'm too impatient and want everything done the moment I think of it.

I'm too self absorbed and don't consider other people enough (probably because i'm trying to be so impossibly perfect and failing miserably )

I shout too much at ds1

And many other things too.

my rear end

Forgetfulness, in certain areas. Why can I remember random car number plates and pointless trivia about people but not remember to phone the plumber, buy birthday presents on time, do things that need doing?

I am very clumsy and things break around me (cars, fridges, wardrobes, plates,...).

Blushing for no reason.

I hate being told what to do, and often do the opposite just to be contrary.

I am very bad at inviting people to my house. I find the thought of it so stressful, even if the reality is quite different.

I am very very lazy - if there's an easy way to do a half-arsed job then I'll often do it, even though I know I'll be unsatisfied with the end results. However when I DO decide to do something properly, it's done REALLY well!

I put things off for months or years as I can't be bothered with them - even fun things like designing our wedding photo album took us 18 months to do.

I'm another one who is rubbish at maintaining RL friendships - luckily I have a good bunch of mates who are equally useless so we can just mail each other every 3 months and it's not a problem!

I get really annoyed with DH and his uselessness, but I don't tell him what he's doing that's annoying, so how's he supposed to know?

I'm overweight but can't be arsed to get exercising or cooking healthily (are we sensing a theme of "can't be bothered" with me?)...

I'm a spendaholic - am surrounded by shops at work, and can easily spend hundreds of dollars a month on stuff I don't need (and won't wear).