Sorry for the long post and rambling but ive tried to include what i feel is relevant. So a bit of background. I'm currently about 15 stone, 5'4", 37 years old. I've slowly slowly put on about 7stone over about 10 years. And gone up a dress size every year. Everyone in family is petitie. My mum was always a size 4-6 and my sisters are both size 6, I was 7 stone 9 pounds when I was 9 months pregnant with my daughter. I have really small hands and feet and I really think I'm meant to be a petite person.
I work from home, very easy job, just 2 days a week. I'm just so greedy, all I think about is cakes, crisps and chocolate. I can never have just 2 biscuits, It has to be half the packet and then I go back and finish the other half. I don't eat when I'm hungry, I eat when I'm bored. I feel disgusted by myself and spend the majority of the time thinking about how fat I am. I've never done a diet for longer than a few days.
It's v difficult as when I was growing up our mum neglected us and there was never any food. Sometimes she'd leave spare change on the table and me and my brother would go to the corner shop and buy about 10 bags of crisps and eek them out across the week. Our school had a tuck shop with junk food and we'd walk around the playground looking for 2ps so we could buy a packet of space raiders for 10p. For 10 years I always went to bed hungry and wondered if I'd have food the next day. When I left home at 19, my greatest pleasure was knowing id always have food.
I joined the gym in December, mainly doing weights, I've definitely seen the difference in my arms, legs and bum. But I've only lost 3 pounds (obviously because I haven't changed how much I eat)
Had some medical problems last year and during the investigations I was told I'm prediebetic. I feel humiliated.
I am trying so hard at the gym, going even when I feel unwell, about 5 times a week. But still no weight loss.
I'm wondering if I should buy mounjaro, but worried about the side effects and if people recommend it? I always thought it was £100 a week and didn't think I could afford it, but I've been told it starts at about 150, so much more in my budget. Is this cheating or does it not matter?
Thank you for reading and any replies.