to think “food noise” is becoming one of those phrases people hide behind rather than actually dealing with their eating habits?

[foodywoody]

I keep hearing people say they have “food noise” and that’s why they’re constantly thinking about food or snacking, but isn’t that just hunger, boredom, habit, or emotional eating dressed up in a nicer label? I’m not saying it’s not real for some people, especially where there are medical issues involved, but the way it’s thrown around now makes it sound like no one has any control over it at all.

It just feels like another way to remove any personal responsibility. Not everything needs a label. Sometimes it’s just about eating properly and getting enough protein and actually addressing emotional eating.

This was exactly my thought process when ill with anorexia except the excess biscuits would be punished with nothing to eat the next day, a fuck-ton of exercise or purged. Maybe all three depending on how strong the internal destructive voice was that day.

I still have some of that kind of narrative in my head but to a mild extent and I’ve learnt to ignore it. Do I still feel guilty for eating doughnuts? Yes, yes I do. Do I petit bother me? Not so much. It’s taken a lot of pushing back against my brain and body to get to this place of ignoring the noise in my head telling me to either eat or not eat and telling me what and how much and what will need to happen if I go outside of the dictatorship in there.

Antidepressants keep me alive. If I come off them, as I have tried to do several times, I slide back into the black place, where I have suicidal thoughts. Even on my good days, there is a small voice, at the back of my mind, telling me the world wouldn't miss me. I will be on the tablets for life.

Like I said, no judgment. Just as I don’t judge people who are using WLI to manage their physical and mental health.