Please could anyone help me? Obviously we are going to get proper advice as soon as he can speak to a psychiatrist but we have no idea when that will be .
He is a lovely man. Genuinely kind loving protective sweet funny generous hardworking loyal.
He has major childhood trauma and adhd. He had a breakdown 3 years ago was given 4 months off work. Since then he has been on 150mg of serttaline and he wants to come off so has been on 100mg since last august. He has weekly trauma focused therapy.
Yesterday followibg a trauma trigger he came home kind of white and I was expecting we would get on with jobs cooking then going out to do some nice bits in town. He was monosyllabic I asked what was wrong and he just seemed to morph didn't look like himself and started speaking in what seemed like some kind of wicked wirch / Yoda voice and he started saying terrible things - he didn't seem like himself and I was like oh my god go and rest you don't seem well and I meant this very genuinely I was concerned but he kept raising his voice in this weird way. Hard to describe but I was really scared as it was freaking me out. I was like ok you seem ill I'm going out please rest and the last thing I remember him saying was 'swellas got an ill partner poor swella she's got an ill partner' in this creepy witchy voice.
I left the house for 2 hours cried my eyes out in the supermarket carpark spoke to Samaritans and when I got home he was asleep. I woke him up and asked if he was ok and said if he did the whole devil voice again to me he would have to go to a hotel. Ar which point the devil voice started up again and I was like that's it enough you are terrifying me you need to go. So he drove off. He came back and hour later crying and saying sorry I said if you do that again you go, you are frightening me.
He started a tiny bit I was like that's enough and he stopped. We had people coming over he then cleaned and prepped with me and then was quiet at dinner but not noticeably odd or out of sorts. This morning we have talked I was like what the hell? And he said he has no memory of speaking like that and behaving like that and I asked it it was involuntary to talk like that and he said yes he has no recollection and doesn't know what he was saying. He seems to have some control as when it was the option of the hotel he stopped and he was fine in front of friends.
Is this mental illness like psychosis I've got no idea?
Or is this deliverable behaviour desisnrd to control?
I have no idea how to help and feel I'm at my limit.