I've NC'd just because I'm not sure I want to have this looming over my other name.
Last year I found out my husband of 20 years had an affair with a workmate that was almost a year long and ended months before I found out. This workmate was a man and my husband admitted he was gay and had known he was for around 8 years. I had him leave and we split custody of our child.
We've been getting along well for the last few months or so and found that we're good as friends. But then last week out of the blue he dropped the bombshell he hopes we will get back together and asked if I'd consider letting him move back in. He said he still loves me and the feelings he has for me didn't disappear when he accepted he was gay and he still wants me even if the attraction "isn't the same"
I didn't say anything in response because I'm just in shock. The moment he came out I had accepted we were done, I didn't have any idea us as a couple was still on the table because how could it be? He still works with the man he had an affair with!
Now I'm still in the early days of this separation, he's been moved out just almost a year and I've struggled to get through this. But now I'm suddenly wondering if it would be a good idea? Which sounds bonkers I know. But I could have my old life back. The easy one where I wasn't eating alone most nights a week! Where my child's family is still together. Am I absolutely batshit to think this might be alright? Give it to me straight. I need perspective. If I asked any of my friends I think they'd kill me so I'm coming here instead!
He has also said if we werent to be romantic we could just live together for the sake of the family. But he'd want me back, he'd want us to be us again.