I'm starting to feel really troubled about how LL and her family's lives have been catastrophically ruined when she could be innocent. I don't know the trial in detail, but there must be people worrying now about covering their backs...
A few things for me
I shut down in times of severe stress if it's impacting me as the target. I noticed in one of clips LLs mum was more in hysterics and LL was trying to protect her saying not to look. It was very similar with my own mum in times of stress - for example I remember vividly when we suffered a sudden family bereavement - she couldn't cope and outwardly sobbed, I was absolutely distraught but shut down which I think was my subconscious counter balancing her reaction to protect her and not make her worse. Now I'm a mother however, if the target was my daughter I think I would be hysterical, but still shut down if it was me, to protect her. I'm also sure there is some advice around saying "no comment" but I honestly don't know the full rationale behind that.
Police can get it very wrong. I went through a period of near-death anorexia in my twenties. I used to get targeted by police when I was out just walking in my neighbourhood because they thought I was drug addict. They acted on circumstantial evidence, but wouldn't let it drop. I daren't challenge it (shutting down again) until it got so bad my parents had to make a formal complaint because I was so fragile.
The taking home of notes...it sounds like there was a lot of politics going on at a time when babies were dying. It must have been harrowing. LL if innocent would need to decompress after those babies so tragically died, she would be feeling a form of grief. Again I think I would process this similarly, possibly making notes in a diary with *'s, I might look at families on Facebook...I actually think these are quite normal human traits, but maybe I am odd. I'm autistic so may be I do see it differently, but I'm not a murderer.
It also sounds like it was a hostile environment of pointing fingers and scapegoats. I work in a very different environment, but when I was in a position where something was clearly brewing I kept written notes of everything and it covered my back. Even if it wasn't conscious, I think having the notes and filing them help decompress what was an emotional and stressful environment.
For me, guilty beyond reasonable doubt has not been met and I just worry about the damage done if indeed everything has been pinned on,someone totally innocent.