99% sure I am being reasonable but can you sanity check please work related

[District66]

I started work for the local council which is a very new role for me. I had zero experience to bring to the position. Lots of life experience in common sense though which I thought would see me through.
How wrong I was
I will try and keep this brief and to the main points but events that have happened over the last six months

Attack attacked in the street by somebody carrying a knife. Took 40 minutes for the armed police to arrive
This person will be sentenced this week and I think as a result of it is brought many feelings to the forefront of how exposed we were and how little support we’ve had since.

Within the team, there are two big strong men
Two other women Very physically unfit and incapable
Another physically unfit and incapable man
Myself and another young girl who in an emergency situation I think would fair second to the two huge blokes, But we would at least be of some use
If it wasn’t for the great deal of psychological trauma suffered by the young girl.
Every single shift, I am embracing myself for an onslaught of trauma dumping
This person is in their early 20s and I have never in my life known so much to happen to one person to the point where other team members are not sure that it’s actually true.
I choose to believe that it’s true
But combined with the incident that happened with the public, I’m getting to the point where my mental health is falling apart
I can’t afford to leave this job
I was off sick with a Work Related injury, so I’ve run out of Sick pay.
I kind of have to power this through, but I don’t know what more I can do to muster protection from management
Additionally, there is conflict in the team and I recorded some of this on my phone gave it to management and was told that it would not be viewed and that disciplinary action would be taken against me if I recorded it again
I’ve been forced to delete the footage
So effectively I have an email from the senior leadership team telling me that I am to destroy the evidence of a verbal attack against me
If this escalates any further and becomes physical, I feel like I should take this to the actual police
But I’m so stressed and upset my usual fairly good judgement is becoming more and more skewed by the day
Can anybody at least reassure me or give me any thoughts on how they would handle this?
Very much appreciated, thank you

To the colleague who trauma dumps, say that you would like her to stop as it is inappropriate to over share in the workplace. If she doesn't, bring it up in your next meeting with your manager.
Regarding conflict, were you verbally attacked by a member of staff? If so, contact HR for further guidance. You may also wish to speak with ACAS.

Yes, this was in the workplace.
Shouted at sworn at and door slammed in our face
All recorded and the recordings have been forcibly deleted

I understand it was in the workplace. Was it by a member of staff? Member of public?

I am not surprised you were asked to delete the recording, to be honest.

Sorry, yes, it was a member of staff that did it
I was told it was a misuse of recording equipment despite the fact that I recorded it in an area that has signage all around it stating that CCTV record recording is taking place. I actually think she’s fucked up quite badly and she is a senior manager.
The problem is what to do about it
One of the main reasons why I did record it. I don’t go around recording conversation conversations with Willie nilly.

It’s because it’s constantly one word against the other and then it’s just impossible for them to do anything.

Even viewing actual CCTV images of staff is gross misconduct in the council I work for, and that's pretty standard.

You have absolutely no right to film your colleagues yourself.

Bloody hell, how is this not obvious to you?

You would've been sacked for that alone in so many places.

It's gross misconduct to record or film your colleagues

Were you attacked by someone with a knife?

Interesting because yeah, that is the Council’s take on it but it’s okay for somebody to swear and shout at other members of the team
But collating the evidence of that is problematic
Seems like I’m in the wrong room

So by now, they would have sent you the council policy and you would've read through it and realised you massively breached it.

Therefore I have to ask, what makes you even a tiny bit sure that YANBU, let alone a whopping 99%? 😳

He didn’t make contact thank goodness and he wasn’t a member of staff

I suppose it’s the dignity at work policy that makes me think I’ve got the right to work without being shouted out and sworn out and having door slammed in my face
Silly old me

If you're being shouted and sworn at you need to take that through the proper channels.

You can't just take it upon yourself to video you colleagues.

And join a union if you haven't already.

As I say we go round and round in circles because it’s one person’s word against the other without any literal evidence of it
So it’s a pointless exercise and it just causes further bad feeling in the team that’s already conflicted

Yes, now you are actually being silly (and sulky) for the sake of it.

You're a grown woman, you know you have the right to work without being shouted and sworn at etc.

However, you don't have the right to deal with it by breaching the council's policy on video recordings.

No, I completely understand that now however the issue will not get solved because it is one person‘s word against another. I’m concerned that it’s going to escalate.
Luckily, as I say she’s acknowledged in the email that she has forced me to delete the video because if it does become physical as other incidents have with the public, This member of staff operates on a similar level
Then I don’t think it’s gonna look great for her

She acknowledged in the email that she has forced you to delete the video because you have committed gross misconduct.

Incidentally, have you received a disciplinary?

sometimes you need to just cut your losses. This job doesn't seem like a great fit for you on multiple levels. It sounds like you wouldn't be happy even if all the colleagues you're struggling with were sacked, and let's be honest, the chances of that happening are incredibly low. So you need to find a new job yourself.

I've got literally no idea why the weight and fitness levels of the other people in your team have any relevance to the rest of your issue at all.

I'm guessing Parking Enforcement which can get quite hairy with angry members of the public.

No it's standard working practise and common sense.

What is the job, OP?

You seem naive as to how workplaces work. You need to get hold of policies and procedures and follow them to the letter not randomly take matters into your own hands. You are muddling together lots of different issues and they need to be separated out and dealt with individually. Are you in a union? You need advice and support about how to deal with the verbal abuse correctly. The trauma dumping is something to deal with yourself.

It’s problematic because if I needed to call on them for support - A knife yielding lunatic, for example, they wouldn’t be able to offer it readily

Is it though? in 30 years in the workplace I’ve never come across anything like this where I’ve needed to collate evidence against colleagues due to their ridiculous and frankly criminal behaviour but here we are.

No, I haven’t

Are you seriously suggesting your colleagues should tackle a knife wielding maniac on your behalf???