Anyone else awake and dreading tomorrow?

[Marjie3]

First time in my 53 years that I’m not feeling it at all this year. Not looking forward to pretending I’m joyfull tomorrow at all and not sure why

I dread every day these days tbh. I think all the bad things that happened to me recently have shattered my ability to be happy. Do you have a theory about what is behind your feeling of joylessness?

Im not dreading it as such, im worried ill be a disappointment.

The kids presents don't look much despite spending a fair bit, but refused to buy anything on credit this year. Worried they’ll be underwhelmed.

Ive had a chest infection and now sat up with sinusitis which is agony.

My lovely husband was discharged from hospital late last night after being told we need to start in depth investigations for possible bowel cancer.

Trying to implement a EHCP right up until Friday has left me frazzled.

Work on Saturday and I’m already wondering if I’ve got anything left.

I don’t feel Christmassy, I feel exhausted but need to show up big time for my children as I had to work last year.

We just need to fake it till midnight!

I'm awake, but not really dreading the big day as such.
I do really need a wee but can't go as the stairs squeak and it will just wake up almost 4yo DGD. She will think father christmas is coming and she was sooo excited about it all.

Why are you not feeling it @Marjie3 ? (Also high 5 to my fellow 53yo xx)

I’m awake it’s not that I’m dreading tomorrow more I just want the whole thing over and done with I normally love Christmas but I lost my grandma a couple of weeks ago and I’m just not in the Christmas mood.

@Pippa12 no wonder you're frazzled that's a lot to contend with.
Hope you have as good a Christmas day as possible with all things considered.
Hope. Your DH has favourable outcome health wise.

I'm awake too. Currently hoping the Imodium Instants work as well as usual, and I can spend the day with the family, rather than being locked in the bathroom 🙄

My 10yo got up for the toilet at 2.45 and I haven’t been able to get back to sleep. I know he is awake in his room because the light is on and he is reading.
I don’t dislike Christmas. I just feel like there is a lot of pressure to have this perfect day. I know bill be exhausted by the end of it and I just hope that everyone has a good time.

Sorry to read this. I can see from the replies we are not alone. Hope you’re doing okay get some sleep

Your kindness put a lump in my throat.

My DH is asleep albeit fitfully next to me looking dreadful so I’m full of angst about the situation we’ve found ourselves in. I’m in healthcare and deep down fairly sure we’ve got a serious situation to face.

My very special but challenging little boy will find tomorrow totally overwhelming and will take a lot of energy to stop him bouncing off the walls driving everybody else to distraction (not me- I have lots of patience and respect for how hard he tries!) It will be too much for my DH tomorrow.

14 people for breakfast at 9am today at our house but I’ve not cleaned the bathroom since Monday due to feeling so bad (on a 10 bloody day course of antibiotics!) followed by a full family dinner at my parents (17 of us!) who will not really appreciate the pressure we are under despite saying they do. We have been brought up to be a ‘the show must go on’ kind of family and early home times will not be looked upon kindly.

Sorry to moan, but I won’t be moaning to anybody else. Christmas dress and full face of slap will be on by 9am outwardly full of festive cheer, but I want to sit in the shed where it’s cool and I can breathe.

If my Dad chucks all his vouchers out in the rubbish for the 3rd year running that’s where they’ll bloody stay today!

edited as used tomorrow and could cry realising my alarm is set for in 2hrs and I’ve not slept!

I’m finding such comfort in these. I hope everybody’s day is as good as it can be. I usually love Christmas, it’s my favourite time of year, but I’m away from my family so I feel a bit glum. DP is with me, but he’s never overly bothered. It’s all going to be very lowkey.

I’m worried that DC’s and my parents’ and sibs and nibs presents won’t have arrived on time/won’t be right. Just feels like a written off Christmas.

Awake here as my toddler is having a terribly restless night and has woken up (next to me in bed- we cosleep) approximately a million times. Definitely not Christmas excitement as DC isn't old enough to understand yet.

Also not feeling it this year as we've had a very recent bereavement so it's tough. Aforementioned wide awake toddler helps a lot.

I think Christmas can be a lovely and magical time but also think it's a poignant time of year for many and a loooot of people find it really hard. There's an added pressure to be having the happiest time ever at all times which really doesn't help if you're already struggling. Added to that the totally over the top consumerism these days and it's easy to be a bit bah humbug.

All that being said, I'm lying here next to my little cheeky one with another on the way in 2026 and feeling very grateful. I hope everyone has as lovely a Christmas as they can 🎄

I hear every word of this. I had this with my sister, who took every opportunity to badmouth me to my parents, until she went too far, shouted at my mum and my dad cut her out. My sister didn't even come to my dads funeral.
Your kids have you and that is all that matters. Don't fall for the social media/film perfect christmas. Your kids just want you and their dad, plus loads of fun x

I’m wide awake and so exhausted. I’ve cried all day yesterday, in between baking and being with the kids. As soon as I was alone I cried. Normally I can fake it but today I just couldn’t

Anyway got Christmas morning and then work to go to so got to be happy.

There’s too much pressure to have a “perfect day”

I’m wide awake and have been half the night for ???? No idea, I’m at work today too….

Feeling a bit low this xmas. DF died in April, and on Sunday DH and I sat with a dear friend and neighbour and his very ill DP. His DP died.
We will be spending xmas day with my DD and her family, my 2 DS and their DPs. My DH is never happy in the company of my family and will look for things to go wrong with the meal etc. So I will be walking on eggshells. This makes me sad because they are welcoming, happy and I love being with them.

I woke up an hour ago stressing I don’t have enough food for the starters so went downstairs to prepare them. But reading other posts makes me realise this is not the end of the world and it won’t ruin Christmas Day!

I hope surprise yourself and have a fun day. Or at least get some really good belly laugh in with delicious glass of wine. You deserve to have a fabulous day x

I'm awake because my circadian rhythm's totally fucked and I'm often awake at this time. I'll sleep most of the day - I live alone and only do Christmas very minimally. I'm having roast beef, I bought myself the 'luxury' joint in hopes of a joyous seasonal experience!

I regret to inform you all that, as I sit next to a big window, I'd have noticed any magical sleighs jingling through the sky. Wishing you all a better day than you expect! 🎅🛷🔔🎁

Just disturbed a burglar at 3am and had the police here. Fuck my life

Got my depressed mum staying with us who said in front of my children (young men in their 20s) yesterday she wants to throw herself off a cliff and end it all.
Not sure what today will bring…

I'm not dreading the day but bracing for it. I strongly suspect one of my DC has ASD and/ or ADHD and she's going to find the day alot. I'm that means everyone else especially me is going to find her alot too. PIL are coming and would probably smack her if she was their kid, thank fuck she's not.

I've also got a fuck ton of cooking to do and a baby to breastfeed. But it's only a day and I'm going to try and take the easy route.

I wish everyone regulated children and a day that brings some comfort.. or at least passes with minimal shit and pain.

Bloody hell- thats alot. I feel for your mum that’s clearly struggling but so draining for you and your family!

My mum started telling the tale in my 9 year old believer’s presence of when she ‘was bringing our presents out of the loft and I heard the bell ring on my new bike’… oh god!

Ring 111 and 2 for mental health support.