I wish I could confess my sins and get absolution

[IwishIcouldconfess]

I made a right tit of myself on Thursday, went out with some ladies I don't know that well, got pissed, couldn't get in through the door, wet the bed and had to ring in sick

Why I let myself get into that state I don't know

I am embarrassed and upset

I wish I could do penance and be absolved

Username changed as I don't want it linking to my previous posts

Yes the lady I was in the taxi with messaged me

Go and read the threads about men that come and piss the bed then, they are very different to this one.

No she shouldn't she was ill albeit it was self induced, she's never normally off sick.

Thank you for all the support

If I could have taken unpaid leave I would have

This!

Many of us have been there. We live and we learn.
I learnt that I was drinking to excess when nervous. Maybe figure our why you did it if you want go avoid it happening again. Don't feel too bad about it though, as I said, many of us have been there.

And say a couple of Hail Mary’s.

Even if you were ‘absolved’ it’s not going to stop you cringing at what happened. Best thing you can do is be more mindful of how much you drink from now on.

You got pissed. Not the end of the world

As a one off, it's embarrassing but not the end of the world. As a regular occurrence, it's definitely a problem that you need to deal with.

I don’t think it’s either. I take it as OP is feeling a bit embarrassed and hoping for kind comments so that she feels better. I imagine she’s being pretty hard on herself as it is so doesn’t need the talking down to that she’ll get from some posters .

I think you’ve just still got the beer fear and the resulting anxiety - you didn’t hurt anyone , just learn from it x

Please, please don’t do this OP. You were sick. It may have been self inflicted but you were sick. Please don’t tell your bosses you lied to them. People can think whatever they like but suggesting to your bosses you weren’t actually ill could get you into trouble you don’t deserve.

3 Hail Marys & our fathers and you are absolved 🙏🏼
I wouldn’t waste another second thinking about it!

You’re in the horrors, understandably. You could recite the whole rosary but I doubt that will make much of a difference. Tea, toast and a sober sleep will help you get some perspective. And once back on an even keel, as others have suggested, rethink your relationship with alcohol. Black out drunk, which is what you describe, is not normal drinking.
Not having an off switch with alcohol, is not normal either. I’ve be where you are and now I have been sober for 14 years. I don’t miss drinking and I certainly don’t miss being in the horrors. Take good care of yourself OP.

How was your shift today @IwishIcouldconfess ?

Therapy is the Protestant version of Confession.
Or just talk to a friend not connected to this group.
And also, there's nothing to feel guilty about. You've probably got hangover anxiety.

The taxi will come with cleaning bill by the way (as it should) . Ifit was uber and someone elae ordered it they might get the charge.

Read that post again, she was not sick in the taxi.

* and had to ring in sick*

so you didn’t call in sick? You went in to work , everyone saw how ill looking you were, and you left?

The shame after drinking is like no other. It’s the only thing that has ever affected my mental health.

Nights like this are how it started. Then it got worse.

Now I’m sober. And life is infinitely better.

@Batteriesoptionalthe horrors is an excellent way to describe it. Congratulations on 14 years.

Technically I believe it is - Ephesians 5:18 prohibits being drunk: “Do not get drunk with wine, for that is debauchery, but be filled with the Spirit” (ESV).

Of course, if OP wasn’t drinking wine then she’s a ok.

The poor colleague stuck in the taxi!

Im confused about the Op calling in sick but then a few posts in that changes to the OP managing to drag herself in but then leaving early because she felt so rough.

Either way, we can beat around the bush but a 52 year old woman with a child and a HCP on shift the following day at 6am to get in this state (urinating in bed, not being about to walk through the door and vomiting) is not remotely within the parameters of “normal” and if I had seen a colleague in this state, knowing she was meant to be in work as a nurse the next morning, I would be very concerned

I was going to say ‘we’ve all been there…’

But I’ve never wet the bed. That’s pretty horrendous.

I’m sure however, you feel more than crap enough about it. Put it behind you but don’t forget it - then you might not get so horribly drunk again.