To tell you how fearless I feel in my 50’s?

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Perimeno has kicked me to the curb. In fact my uterus has been the sole cause of all my life’s woes other than bereavement. That is extremely impactful to well-being. In a negative sense.

And I’ve heard and read over and over that as you age, you care much less about a lot of the shit that would have bothered someone in their 20’s or 30’s. The “ we do not care club” brilliant example of this.

But today, I did a job interview with zero fucks given, if they like me, they like me, if they don’t, they don’t. I wasn’t nervous, I answered the questions well and with confidence. I was my usual, happy, sunny kind and open self. Not a het up tight ball of anxious downtrodden jelly.
I’m not nervously waiting to see if I’m through to the next round.
Previously I would have torn myself to pieces feeling torn and wrenched about letting my current employer down. Nope. Not at all.
Imposter syndrome heavy within every fibre. He can fuck off quite frankly.

So because of perimeno insomnia, I’ve been sat here since 4am reflecting and I feel quite proud actually. I’m a brave grown ass woman at long last.
Feels good.

Love it op! Solidarity.
The downside is that you see what absolute twats people can be, especially men. I didn’t think it was possible to be even more disappointed in people but here we are.

God yes. I've no idea where my need for male approval came from, but all those years spent uncritically and unquestioningly pandering to the male gaze is utterly baffling to me. What a waste indeed.

I do understand this. Although, there definitely are good men around (I've been married to one for 30 years!), I feel like the scales have fallen from my eyes more generally as I've aged. On the whole, I do not trust men and I definitely don't seek their approval. Again, I'm annoyed at the younger me wanting men to find me attractive and measuring my worth in this way 😒. Bloody oestrogen!

Also “no, that doesn’t work for me” has shed the shackles of people pleasing for me.
I don’t want to do that therefore I won’t be doing that Thankyou and please.

Guilt? Nah not a bit of it so.

I’m so glad I never felt anything but the way I always have. It has however had me being accused of being selfish because I have never been a people pleaser, always been fine saying no and always had quite a bit of contempt for men. Enjoy your new found mind set.

Yes, like they’re on fire!

I think it’s because there’s potentially a hormonal element. Less oestrogen = less people pleasing fucks.

Channeling Phoebe.