That you never get over a bad childhood

[LadybugsAndSunshine]

Those of you that have had terrible abusive childhoods, do you think it ever leaves you.. The Shame or the sadness.
Im 43 now and I am happily married with my own now adult son but I still think about it a lot, At least 3 times a day a memory will drag me back in time.
It seems so unfair that the first 18 years of your life cause upset for the remaining 60.
I’ve had therapy and I’m no contact, I can manage my reactions to these feelings better the older I get but it’s hard, is it just me or do others feel the same.

I was talking about this with my sister last night.

She hoards food, I hoard clothing. It’s trauma.
She used to get dragged around by her hair a lot, I was slapped from an early age, dragged around by my hair and called a slag and slut from around 10.

The physical abuse stopped when I was 15 when she came for me and I gave her the biggest kicking of her life. Am I proud of it? Yes. Keep your hands to yourself and speak to me properly as a human being. My crime? Literally just being alive.

My parents had 4 children, they were not mentally equipped to handle one never mind 4.

We’re in our early 40s but it never goes away.