Lack of support after failed IVF

[Mazybabe]

I worked for a large corporation for just over 6 years. I was a model employee with no issues.
Our company had a restructure meaning that we had a new team with a different line manager. A couple in the team were toxic. They spoke poorly of each other and were gossiping a lot. They didn’t like the incoming phone line and decided it needed a rota to split the cover. It was more to accommodate fag breaks as they stood outside together getting someone to cover.
My personal circumstances were that I’ve had 6 rounds of IVF with varying degrees of success, pregnant them miscarried, pregnant then ectopic pregnancy, anemia needing a full blood transfusion. So this meant I had a lot of time off. Work policies were fine with it but some in my team were unsupportive.
After the last episode of IVF and time off I returned to work, it was okay but felt pressured from one individual with digs about staff levels, covering my work and just really felt she was being a bitch. It was passive aggressive messages on Teams etc. This person knew that I’d returned after another miscarriage so did my manager.
I raised it through the correct channels, I told the person I was going to raise concerns about her, when I discussed it with my manager he told be he was staying impartial, go to mediation, he didn’t have an opinion but X wanted to progress.
Personally it felt like I’d been let down, I’m particularly vulnerable at the moment and could have done with some support.
Anyway the next week I gave notice to leave, have left but feel I’ve let myself funny not standing up for myself. It could look like I’ve run away.
I can accept the environment wasn’t great but feel with support I could have worked through it.
What are others thoughts?

Hugs op ❤️❤️❤️ I’m going through the same and have had time off due to losses aswell. I feel really guilty about taking time off and that adds to the stress ffs

My heart goes out to you.

Wishing you strength to get through this, it will never take away the pain but time does make it just that little bit more bearable.

If you need time out to heal, take it.

when all said and done it’s just a job. If the company you worked for went bust they’d make you redundant.

It’s so so difficult for others to understand, some people will never experience so they don’t get it.

I was made to feel guilty by one person in particular when I returned to work. You’ll probably feel similarly in that it makes you so vulnerable. I felt I had a choice, carry on in a job and be made to feel like I’d done something wrong for having time off, this in turn made me feel like I needed a break. Alternative was for me to leave, cut out the stress and hope that I can make it work to have a child. That adds stress as we are down to one wage but I just don’t know how to navigate such a difficult situation.

I hope you have people around you that can give you genuine support. It depends on the type of job you have and how your place of work manage things when you’re off. For me it wasn’t managed very well and I can see how this made others resentful.

I’ve not had support through my loses, I just tried to get on with things again as soon as I could.

Looking back it would have been helpful to have some guidance like counselling.

There isn’t anything anyone can say that helps. It’s so confusing and painful.

Sending positive thoughts and prayers for you.

Genuinely hopefully you get on your feet soon.