Hi
Just posting as need someone to talk to as don't want to talk to loved ones.
My Mum is in heart failure and is fading away day by day. She is my world.
I'm engaged, no children. One cat.
I suffer from depression and I'm going through a bad spell.
I wish I was dead. I feel like I'm going through life living for other people and I'm biding my time until my mum goes and I can kill myself.
My partner doesn't really understand me and neither do my wider family, only my parents.
I don't know what to do. Living life is physically painful, I just feel dead inside.