Dd, 6, currently being assessed for adhd & autism. She is wonderful, incredible, brilliant, interesting, hilarious, very bright, individual, strong willed and full of character. This makes for a life that’s never dull, but it is non stop and utterly exhausting.
From birth, I struggled and wondered why I struggled when others didn’t seem to struggle as much. Some things were easy and it was great, others like sleep and just general calming down, were v hard.
I expected things to get easier as she got older, it feels harder though. She’s so hyper, so strong willed, just everything feels difficult at times, nothing is ever easy. I was wondering how it is for other mums of children a similar age? Is it like this? Are most things a struggle? Getting them to listen to you, get dressed when you ask? Do you just tuck them up in bed at 7 and pop downstairs for the rest of the night, as opposed to having to lie next to them, whilst they move around, play, chat and can’t switch off until 9.30?
I always felt sure of things when she was little, yes she was energetic and I was tired, but now it seems even harder and I feel like I’m crap mum, I didn’t feel like this before. It was my dream to be a mum, I stayed home with her until 4, co slept, breastfed, went to all the classes, we had a good life, now I feel it’s just so very hard, I don’t enjoy parenting at all, there’s no let up at all
Is this all parenting, is it just more difficult with nd chindren or am I just doing things wrong and being a shit parent??