To be too scared to talk to my family about my new heart problems?

[SaltyDragon]

I was taken to hospital, last night, under blue lights and sirens, with a racing, out of sync heart. The paramedics phoned ahead and I was literally wheeled out of the ambulance, through the fastest triage ever and into Resus where I was inundated with medical people, all within the space of 10 minutes or so. The staff were amazing.

I was diagnosed with AF, Afib so my heart was out of rhythm and beating way too fast. They managed to get me back to sinus rhythm and my heartrate down and gave me antibiotics for two skin infections they found. But I am now left with possible heart disease, a raft of new medications to take (honestly I rattle) and a load of tests to find out why my heart is no longer working properly.

And, apart from my two adult children, I dare not talk to any of my family because I know they will accuse me of trying to be centre of attention and a hypochondriac. (I have a lot of medical issues, mostly due to being obese) Which leaves me no-one to talk to, so I'm hoping you lovely people will have non-judgemental advice and encouragement to give me.

I just feel so low about not being able to talk to my sisters and brothers (parents both gone) openly about this.

I could feel it, pounding so hard my whole body vibrated. I also had no energy at all and couldn't stop yawning. You can hear it is well, is the best way I can describe it.

I can always tell when I am in AF ... out of breath, strange sensation in my chest, giddy .... it's a pain.

I think my dad's only symptom was, maybe, a bit of breathlessness or dizziness, which he mostly only noticed when walking around. Due to a neck problem he barely exercises at all anyway, so hard to know if he had just become very unfit or there was something else going on.