I've said on other threads that I avoided this case while it was ongoing for personal reasons. Despite my own experience at the hands of one arm of the justice system I still wanted to believe that after those high profile cases that were finally overturned due to issues with medical evidence, that a case so serious must have pretty solid evidence at its core.
How on earth a nurse could do such things, undetected for so long was such a horrifying thing to contemplate.
Once the trial was over, and the reports questioning almost every aspect of the case started to gather momentum, I cracked. I was back in the days when I had to become my own expert in order to prevent my son being lost to the system permanently. And I went straight to reading everything I could around the medical evidence. Breaking it down to the proposed mechanics. Analysing via information found easily on the Internet not related to the case, some from actual NHS websites, regarding the physiology if neonates, size of equipment etc etc and I could see it didn't add up. Neonatal practitioners were also questioning it.
The testimony of the experts in court was chilling to read. In particular the liver injury. There is no clear, cogent explanation of how that was "inflicted" with the force associated with car crashes or falling off a trampoline. I saw the same circular logic and emotive language as I'd seen in my own case 30 years ago, and my last shred of faith in the justice system and the way medical experts are used within it dissolved.
I've shared a tiny part of my experience here and on other threads, not because I want attention or sympathy but because unless you have been in the position where experts, some of whom have never met you or know anything about you are making clinical pronouncements that will determine the entity trajectory of your life that you know are wrong, I understand that those questioning this conviction sound like fantasists and conspiracy theorists.
If I hadn't had the experience I had, I too would be much more inclined to believe in the system. I would still believe that truth wins the day, there is no smoke without fire, that experts are impartial and justice is blind. That miscarriages of justice are rare. That those caught up in the system for the most part have only themselves to blame as I did when I was 25 and nursing a newborn who arrived 5 weeks early due to missed pre-eclampsia. Rude awakening doesn't begin to cover it.
Of course everyone is entitled to their own opinion. It's possible some reading my posts are appalled I wasn't prosecuted for child abuse and are wondering if they could get my case re-,opened. It's also possible that others with similar experiences are too traumatised and fearful to talk about it but have experienced similar. Some may have had shocking treatment in hospitals when their children were born, victims of sub-optomal care whose concerns have been ignored or rubbished.
This is all very very complicated and emotive and bears discussion because how it is handled and the outcome will have massive implications on both the medical and legal fronts.
The Thirwall Inquiry is important. However, it is being conducted from the viewpoint of how hospital failings allowed a serial killer to operate on the wards not whether one was. Ideally two parallel investigations should be done IMHO. One on the first premise, and one taking LL out of the equation entirely, just focusing on the spike in deaths. That might be an enlightening exercise indeed.