I was never convinced she wasn't a scapegoat
We all want to believe that the NHS will do all it can, regardless of a shoestring budget. But that's not possible. So instead of admitting that these poor babies died due to underfunding, understaffing and neglect on the part of the healthcare authority, they picked her.
I've said before that my DS was in neonatal. It was so badly funded and understaffed that two babies died. There were 6 incubators in a corridor awaiting fixing. No one knew when this would happen.
I couldn't get my milk to come in, yet was moaned at for not giving breastmilk. Later on down the months I was told I should have received medication to make it come in, instead it was incorrectly recorded that I refused this- I had breastfed my DD for a year so had no issues doing so again.
When it came time to leave neonatal, we had a social worker put a block on us taking him home. They came to our home and said as we hadn't sufficiently shown we were OK taking care of a baby with illness they would not let him leave. I was told only one of us had visited him at neonatal, and only "3 times" in the 4 months he was there. This was entirely false. I only proved different due to bus tickets and 2 other mums who were in the same part of the department.
So false recording or incorrect recording happens. I once had his consultant- who was vile- have a go at me in front of other parents for ignoring a call. She was calling the local midwife number, out of hours. She accused my DH and I of not being together. I had someone from maternity call to complain that I had failed to turn up for my scheduled C-section. I had to point out I had had the baby months before at their hospital and was kept in their ward for 2 weeks.
I don't believe she was guilty. At all. But imagine the situation they admit that? Firstly she would be entitled to some serious compensation. And also, where do we go in terms of the NHS? It took seven years for the Grenfell enquiry. And they still have no justice.
It's uncomfortable.