My dad was admitted to hospital a fortnight ago after suddenly becoming unwell with his diagnosis of cancer.
He has it in his hip, kidneys and a lump on his breast. The plan was a hip replacement at the end of the month and then radiotherapy. Then they would work on the rest.
He has now gotten worse before any of that could be done.
I have seen him daily for 2 weeks and after spending the morning at his bedside I got a call within an hour to come back. They said they wouldn't be surprised if he didn't last an hour.
12 hours later in say in the same chair watching every breath with no idea when it may happen.
He's been on a syringe drive for a few days now and hasn't eaten in a fortnight but was on fluids by drip.
His breathing is laboured but steady.
I have no idea what to expect or when to expect it. I'm so tired and run down I feel sick. But I can't leave him.
And I can't even think about what comes after. I've spent 2 weeks being strong for him.
Not sure why I'm posting. Just sat here feeling very very sad.