Wish I could but I can't

[NotACryFirHelp]

Changed name
I wish there were a switch to turn my life off
Should be a way out, but I'm too much of a coward to do the thing it would take, as I don't want pain, I don't want to cause pain, I just want out.
Don't want to have to explain.
There's no answer anyway
Can't phone a helpline coz I'd be overheard
Writing on this, coz it's soundless
Is there a painless way out?

Samaritans have an online chat. Please contact them x

You say you'll be overheard. Are you in any danger right now?

I'm not in any danger from antithetical than myself....
I can't hurt the feelings of the person I live with, partly because they are very unwell, partly because we promised we would share both good and bad.

Anyone other than myself

I can only tell you about my experience but there have been times in my life where I have not wanted to wake up OP. It was horrible and desperately lonely. However, I'm so glad I did and I'm here today.

I think there are text lines that you can contact so you wouldn't be heard speaking. Text Shout to 85258.

Quite honestly I think it's silly to promise to stay together through the bad times if it's the person who is causing the bad times.

When you say they are unwell do you mean mentally unwell?

Do you have children together?

No children together
We have loved each other through thick and thin
Just can't take any more
Partner is unwell
I'm unwell
Both of us too unwell to fix house problems
No help available elsewhere
Wouldn't dream of asking, as I have before but was ignored
I've run out of energy and mental motivation

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