Fed up with life?

[strangeoldworld]

Does anyone else ever feel utterly bored with life and the same old crap every day?
I have taken anti depressants for years (not something I ever wanted to do) and have slowly started to wean myself off them. I guess this must be majorly contributing to how I feel atm. I was on 100mg of sertraline and am now on a third of a tablet.

I just feel like every day is the same. Work stresses me out a lot and I am constantly putting myself down. I guess my head is just not wired properly. I've never had much confidence and stupid little things get me down

My friend told me yesterday she had our other friend over on the weekend but never invited me and it's upset me a little. Mainly because I always felt left out in school and I think those feelings have fed into my adult life. I have always felt like the odd one out because I can be quiet/reserved. I sometimes feel like people are always going to let me down and I will never understand them. The same friend has been messaging me constantly lately because our other friend has been absent. I just feel like people use you for their convenience half the time
I have always found you have to make more effort than someone who is extroverted. I wish I was more outgoing but I'm 41 now so I don't think I ever will be. Not that I'm bashing people who are introvert. It's just my experience and I'm fed up with feeling like the odd one out. Perhaps I care too much what people think

I have many hobbies in my life, I volunteer, keep fit, don't drink and book trips away constantly. I have a partner who I live with but I'm still fed up with everything

I know it sounds awful but I don't see the point of living half the time. These are just thoughts btw but I just find life to be constant stress, being let down by people, battling with my mind on a daily basis and not much in the way of fun
I guess life isn't always fun and excitement and I am just in a bad headspace

Can anyone else relate to being bored of the humdrum of life?

i have to say that no op, i don’t relate

i think a huge factor in why is because i only work part time and i love my job.

do you have children?

Why did your 'friend' say that to you? Wagon. Sounds like you need new friends.

My friend told me yesterday she had our other friend over on the weekend but never invited me and it's upset me a littl

be honest… when was the last time you invited her over to yours?

is there anything wrong with not coming off determine if you benefit from it?

Yes, I can relate OP. I'm not exactly depressed, but more languishing, not finding joy in anything. Like you, I go through the motions of work, gym, holidays, etc, but can't really be arsed with anything. With me it's probably the menopause. Sometimes I think, Christ I could have another 25years of this. Not sure I can face it in all honesty.

I don't really know what the answer is, but you're definitely not alone

No kids. Neither me or my partner are bothered about having any. And I don't feel like I want to pass on my depression and anxiety to anyone else. I don't have to come off my medication but they have caused a lot of other side effects like lack of libido, brain fog etc and I wanted to see if coming off would alleviate those symptoms.

Sorry to hear you are also feeling crappy. I dread to think how I'll be when I go through the menopause if this is what I'm like now! I hope you find something that brings you joy soon x

Life is a super big hassle and I will be glad when it's over. But we're here now so try to have the most fun you can with it.

I do feel the drudgery but I have 2 small kids, work full time (which I love) and it can get tedious but if I was child free I would be loving my freedom. It's clear your MH is not helping, have you sought any therapy?

That's cheerful 🙄

I don't think cheerful replies are honest, are they? Like op I don't have kids and one of the reasons is that I don't think existence is a nice thing to foist on someone. It's a bloody pain in the arse! But we can make the best of it and it's not for too long.

Half empty? Life is hard but also it's amazing, you can create wonderful memories, new adventures, so I think you might need some help with your MH. I try and be positive as the alternative is a miserable existence. Your a long time dead.

Maybe just accept that people have different perspectives. I'm glad I'm a long time dead! Looking forward to the cessation of massive hassle. It's not a therapy issue - some people just don't think the bad bits are outweighed the good.

I go through phases of feeling just like this. You probably need to increase your sertraline again, or talk to your doctor about switching to a different medication. I’m much better on antidepressants, but I do go through phases of feeling very flat. I put it down in part to middle age and a lack of excitement and hope for the future.

As for memories - they are temporary by definition. I agree might as well see what's around while we're here but I don't think life is a good thing to have to experience and I think being fed up with it is natural.

Is this how you felt when you were on full dose of sertraline? Have you tried any different antidepressants? I’ve been medicated for 20+ years but in that time I’ve had to swap a number of times to correct for side effects or when one particular antidepressant has stopped working… honestly, try something different - what do you have to lose (my fave was citalopram, least favourite venlafaxine!)

I know how hard it is to advocate for yourself when you’re in the inert “blah” state of depression but it really doesn’t have to be as shit as you feel it is right now

I could have wrote this post op. You are not alone x

I often feel like this. I do a job I don't like, but feel stuck in because it suits my circumstances, which probably contributes to this feeling. Each day feels like a joyless slog. I'm pretty lucky in life but I don't feel much enjoyment ever. Even holidays or other things that should fill me with excitement don't.

I previously was also on 100mg sertraline but came off it 2 years ago as I often still felt low, so it felt like dealing with the side effects for no real benefit. But I do wonder if I'd enjoy life more back on it.

No advice I'm afraid. I think there really isn't much point to life, so I guess we have to focus on doing the things we do enjoy as much as possible, and also spend time helping others in worse situations. I do some voluntary roles, but I actually find them stressful rather than rewarding 😅 but I find just doing random acts of kindness that make other people's lives a bit easier gives me some enjoyment.

I don’t want to be facetious, but are there any little things you enjoy? A coffee in the morning watching the birds in your garden, or driving with a particularly good album or podcast on? Life can be a slog at times, but I think snatching little pockets of joy where you can keeps you going. Why not try listing the things you like? I find looking forward to these powers me through days where it all feels a bit of a grind:

A nice cold beer on a Friday after a tough week

Something nice for dinner or your favourite cake for supper with a cup of tea

Lying in bed reading listening to the rain…

Is there anything like that you really enjoy?

Are you a Deftones fan by chance?

There are many things I do enjoy. Gardening, going on mini adventures, nature, animals, painting, being active. I just feel like the drudgery/stress of life outweighs the little moments of joy. I do try and appreciate them as much I can. I guess I am just wondering if it's normal to feel more down than happy. My MH has always caused me issues. I guess it makes things twice as hard

It's weird because on my full dose of anti depressants I just feel like I'm on a flat, like not up or down. I do find the negative thoughts are lessened. There are happy moments but they are fleeting. I know there's nothing wrong with being on anti depressants but I also wanted to see if I could cope without. I've been on them over 15 years after all. Maybe I should try a different one

Tbh I feel pretty similar.

I think that's one of the pitfalls of anti Ds, they save you from the worst of it but they do flatten you somewhat.

Yes I am!

I don’t have any real experience with depression, so in a sense my perspective is just as skewed as someone who does, but I’d say no it isn’t particularly ‘normal’ to feel more down than happy. My husband has a slightly different perspective though - he says he often feels ‘flat’: not unhappy or depressed, but not particularly joyful. He doesn’t suffer with depression - this is more a personality thing for him. We often discuss how different people seem to feel endorphins in a variety of ways, so my own perspective of feeling happy a lot is no more normal than his - if that makes any sense at all.

I feel pretty much the same.

Today has pretty much confirmed the next 20+ years of my life will be more or less becoming a carer and the thought of that has pretty much made me realise I’ll never do the things I thought I would.

Even for the fleeting moments of happiness they are tainted because there’s always something in the back of my mind I need to keep a check of, and ultimately I just continue on the same tedious treadmill.