I have M.E/C.F.S, hypoe4mobility, agoraphobia, panic disorder, general anxiety, anorexia nervosa and doby dysmorphia. And apparently now depression. Also currently on waiting lists to find out whether autism and/or CPTSD are reasons for my persistent and plentiful anxiety disorders.
As soon as WFH become a thing, I jumped at the chance. Gained qualifications through the latter half of covid, and now WFH full time in a role that fully aligns with my interests and passions. I had previously been on benefits since 15, with only very part time jobs.
I was in a good place when I started my current job. I was able to go out by myself in the local town, had a control of the panic attacks, therapy had helped the eating disorder and I was managing my energy levels so I wasn't feeling rubbish constantly. Never had been depressed. I had spent a long time managing my conditions and was in a great place.
I'm now a total mess. Yes, I love my job, but even with WFH and fantastic colleagues and a fantastic role, I cannot cope. I cant leave the house. I have random, frequent panic attacks, im fatigued with constant headaches. I can't look in the mirror without breaking down, the body dysmorphia is so bad. I am now depressed, suicidal, everything has flared up to the extreme and life is not worth living if i have to live like this.
Perhaps work can help some mental health issues, if they're milder or temporary or situational... but perhaps not when its persistent mental illness.
I should've stayed how I was. I don't know what happens from here... i still have my job, dunno how long for. For all my good will and intention I had, work has NOT helped improved my conditions, but rather the extreme opposite.
I was more use to the world, the people around me, on benefits. I now need a lot of care from others. I'm an absolute mess.