Sorry if I ramble on but I can't deal with anything anymore it's all too much for me.
Everything is a massive effort going to work, getting washed dressed, shopping picking prescriptions cleaning the house getting out of bed you name it.
I feel dead inside like I've stopped can't get any enthusiasm and interest or motivation feel lonely struggle with interaction struggle to take on anything new and get brain block/fog in danger of making myself look stupid thick etc can't even type properly. Its affecting me so badly that I wonder how peaceful it would be to check out of life I'm overweight through binge eating, diabetic, hypertension, underactive thyroid gastric issues, adhd asd mental health services haven't been much good and I struggle making telephone calls to help myself I don't know how to pull out of this. I get overwhelmed if I end up with too many hours at work which sometimes happens through pressure I can't sleep or I get too ill with my stomach and all I want is to sleep. I am under financial pressure to get money together for an essential and that's dragging me down. I just don't know what to about myself. I'm on a cocktail of medication even a mood stabiliser for nighttime and I sometimes become extremely agitated with kicking and shouting and snacking my head.
I don't know what to do.