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Sorry if I ramble on but I can't deal with anything anymore it's all too much for me.
Everything is a massive effort going to work, getting washed dressed, shopping picking prescriptions cleaning the house getting out of bed you name it.
I feel dead inside like I've stopped can't get any enthusiasm and interest or motivation feel lonely struggle with interaction struggle to take on anything new and get brain block/fog in danger of making myself look stupid thick etc can't even type properly. Its affecting me so badly that I wonder how peaceful it would be to check out of life I'm overweight through binge eating, diabetic, hypertension, underactive thyroid gastric issues, adhd asd mental health services haven't been much good and I struggle making telephone calls to help myself I don't know how to pull out of this. I get overwhelmed if I end up with too many hours at work which sometimes happens through pressure I can't sleep or I get too ill with my stomach and all I want is to sleep. I am under financial pressure to get money together for an essential and that's dragging me down. I just don't know what to about myself. I'm on a cocktail of medication even a mood stabiliser for nighttime and I sometimes become extremely agitated with kicking and shouting and snacking my head.
I don't know what to do.

I can't believe that not one person has responded tbh

So sorry you’re going through this, is there anyone you can reach out to, a family member or friend or perhaps head back to the Drs?

I'm very sorry you're feeling so bad. It sounds like severe depression.
I expect you're on something for that?

Is your mental health team supportive?

Do you have any friends or family who know how you’re feeling? Is it possible for you to take a little time off work to try and get yourself together?

It really does sound like you are trying to cope with an overwhelming amount of things and support is so important.

Following.
I could have written more or less exactly all of this too OP. I just feel so stuck with no hope ahead.
Sorry I can't offer any advice or help
I'm hoping for some insight myself 💐

What is it you are saving up for? Is this the main source of stress for you? there may be other ways of funding it. Maybe tell us and we could give suggestions.

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My sister offers some support occasionally but she's busy with her own life. Going off work impossible as I wouldn't manage financially to do what needs to be done I'm exhausted with putting the front on at work and forcing myself to carry out everyday things and at work also

It's certainly not helping at all but I don't really want to go into detail what it's for.
My doctor did a few face to face with me but can't say it achieved much.

It sounds like you need all your blood tests repeated and meds reviewed and some therapy, something is out of sync could you contact your diabetic or thyroid team and see what help they can give you are you type 1 or 2 and do you happen to be on metaformin ?

Your problems sound overwhelming and you certainly need some support.

Have you spoken to your line manager HR department at work? If there is a possibility that your mental health might affect your performance, it's better that they understand what you are going through before the cracks start to show.

An appointment with occupational health might help. They can work with you and your line manager to make reasonable adjustments to your working arrangements to help you cope through this difficult time. They might also have a confidential employee assistance scheme you can contact.

When you are suffering from depression and anxiety everything, including the normal routine of life can feel like a mountain to climb. If you haven't already done so, speak to your GP about medication and other therapies that might help.

I hope you feel better soon. It might not feel like it at the moment, but this difficult time will pass.

Have you spoken to your diabetes team? They should be helping you loosing weight and keeping your bs numbners down.

What was your last hba1c?

Are you on anti depressants?

I've had loads of bloods done diabetes not controlled due to my eating habits and when I get ill with my stomach I don't have the energy to take them and worry they are causing more trouble. Even interacting with the health professionals is a strain for me I sometimes forget what they've told me. My liver enzymes are out of range I'm trying to deal with all these problems and I'm waiting list for counselling been way over a year not a word waiting list for endoscopy liver scan etc etc.
I'm been told about diet exercise but mental health not sorted.

Yes I am but been on and off like a yo yo as I didn't think they was helping.

Firstly, sending hugs. I know how you feel. It's not nice and it's not easy. It's hard feeling like you're completely alone and it's hard to explain yourself and it's hard to love yourself.

Can you get yourself signed off? Even just for a week? To totally relax and do some things you enjoy.

I could have written the medication part myself! It's so easy to forget you're on medication when it starts helping you. I have been in a vicious circle of starting meds, feeling a bit better and then stopping. It will get to you so continue taking them. Are you on anxiety medication? That could be helpful just to allow you to calm and clear your head a bit.

Do you write things down? A daily diary of your feelings, sleeping times etc? It may be helpful to do this as you can show your diary, it will help you advocate yourself.

It is difficult but you're strong. Even on really bad days, we still dig down and find that little bit of strength that we didn't know existed. It's there.

Finally, love yourself. You are a human being and sometimes we struggle to cope. That's ok. Try and slow down a little and take that really important time to be there for you. 🥰

Hi how are you today ?

I think sticking with them would be ideal and a bit trial and error about which one suits you best is likely.

How are you feeling?