Right, I’m going to summarise as much as I can.
I adore my mother. We are so close, she’s the best mother, nan and such a beautiful soul. I’m 24. We live together, at her house along with my daughter whos 4 and my partner. She’s basically been a single parent all my life and absolutely spoiled me beyond belief and I’m so so grateful for everything. She doesn’t have the best of health physically & mentally so she worries a lot and can’t really do much around the house. She doesn’t really go out anywhere. She’ll cook say once a week, but that stresses her out because the size our kitchen or if she can’t find something, she will look after my son but that’s usually shared between my partner if he’s home, I clean, I do the washing, I basically do things around the house to keep her happy and not stressed. Even down to the gardening. She doesn’t really come downstairs but when she does I’m on edge as she does have the habit of picking bad things out. We had an argument 2 weeks ago after I went out. My daughter was safe with my partner and my mother was also in the house. I kept it contact. I haven’t been out in over 2 years. Ok I was late but she was literally walking the streets after me saying ‘I’m safe I’m waiting for a taxi’, she went absolutely nuts on me. I know she’s always going to worry about me but it felt so intense and extreme. I think I feel a bad person and cruel saying all this but ultimately I live on eggshells but I don’t want my mother thinking I love her any less but I worry about noise from my daughter, if I haven’t done something around the house, if she’ll wake up in a mood, if my dog barks, if me and my partner have words I know she can hear, I feel so guilty for even sharing this but I don’t know what to do