In a nutshell…
it’s been around 5 months since I’ve slept. Dramatic as it sounds, I have one child with SEN that causes insomnia, temporary custody of a toddler and a career that causes all sorts of mayhem to a circadian rhythm.
I haven’t had more than 2-3 hours in one go for about 5 months.
Unusual as it seems, the morning routine with SEN child is about as easy as it gets, he’s chronically hungry and loves predictability and routine so all you do is go into his room with his breakfast, flick the telly on and use that 15 mins to have a wee and coffee yourself and then once he’s finished eating you attack him wet wipes and chuck his clothes on. He’s largely compliant as long as you’re willing to talk Minecraft while you’re doing it.
It’s been programmed to a fine art. It’s completely drama free.
DH yesterday, after I’ve had a bit of a wobbler last night agreed to do the morning today. So lovely of him to let me just stay in bed asleep as a rare treat. I’ve been so tired I’ve been hallucinating and definitely in danger of having some sort of breakdown.
toddler is not here for 2 days.I had two glasses of wine and a Benadryl and took myself to bed in anticipation of an actual full sleep.
7:15 am.
’babe! Where’s his swim kit?’
’babe where’s his socks?’
’babe what trousers should he have today?’
’babe I’ve wiped his arse and brushed his teeth but he won’t let me sort his hair out’…
for fucks sake.
its a magenta coloured towel, its on the chair, the swim pants and hat were literally on top of it it could be seen from the other end of the fucking landing!
he has fucking autism with the sensory quirks, there are 44 pairs of identical socks in the top drawer of the only chest of drawers he has.
he wears black leggings, every single fucking day. He has 8 identical pairs, pick a bloody pair!
no one gives a shiny shit what his hair looks like. He has an ECHP and a carer, take a wet wipe and smooth it down to one side so it looks like we’ve tried. Anything more than this is likely to get you bitten or head butted anyway.
yes I’m furious, 4 units of alcohol and a Benadryl just to be woken up for this arbitrary shit that should have been so pissing obvious.
Of course I’m awake now. I had to drink a coffee to get going so I won’t be able to sleep. I begged this man to let me sleep today I absolutely begged him not to disturb me. I have the toddler back tomorrow it’ll be 3 weeks before I can beg for sleep again.
he sleeps all fucking weekend.
sorry. I had to write this down so I didn’t kick off at him.
please suggest something good to watch on Netflix since I’m so bloody awake anyway. TIA