I've been seeing someone for the past four months. Yesterday he broke things off and said he just doesn't feel like we are compatible. He then said he would be up for a friends with benefits situation as he enjoyed my chat and the sex. When I agreed to that (which I didn't even want but went into panic mode and wanted to keep him in my life), he has since backtracked and said he would like to just remain friends, no sex, no sexting, no pics.
Now I know rationally that he was never really interested in me in a serious way. We chatted everyday but he always kept me at arms length and wasn't too keen to see me like I was him.
But oh my god this one hurts. I've been through breakups but this one is really stinging. I keep crying. I haven't told any of my family or friends as I'm so embarrassed after such a short relationship. As he said to me actually, we were never serious. So I can't even call it a relationship. I am moping about the house crying, my little daughter is seeing this, I can't eat, I feel sick to my stomach. I keep messaging him for some sort of reassurance basically offering myself up on a plate for him.
I don't know if it's been the texting all day everyday but the thought of not having him to share my day with and chat with almost takes my breath away. I know how utterly pathetic this sounds and really did not expect this to cause me such anguish. Is this normal for such a short term relationship? How do I get rid of this horrible feeling? I'm locked in the bathroom crying my eyes out.