To not want the screaming and destruction in my life anymore

[PicaK]

Sen kid.
Just had enough this morning

It is shit, and sometimes you wake up in the morning and your first thought is ‘Fuck, here we go again’ before you even open your eyes.
Mine are adults, HFA and things improved as they got older and learnt how to manage some of the triggers more effectively. Which I’m grateful for.
Because some days, you do feel like a fox in a leg trap, contemplating gnawing off a leg just to be free.
Ontheperiphery79 Everyone’s situation and needs are different. Your twins are Y1 and you’ve got a long, tough road ahead of you. You’ve barely started on the trek that some of us have been doing for decades longer. When they are teens, you may look back on your arrogant response to a desperate mother and think ‘Oh fuck, now I get it’ or you may not.
I hope you develop a sense of compassion for those not coping, however briefly, as well as you think you are doing.

You must be using an oxygen mask to breathe in the rarified atmosphere up there on your very high horse.

I've worked in a few settings with children with ASD. The work is rewarding, but there is a particular noise that you don't hear anywhere else. I can choose to leave the radio off in the car though, and home is much quieter in comparison (toddler noise comes nowhere close). Must be really, really tough to be the parent and not be able to switch off. Huge respect and love to you OP.

Sympathy, OP. I hope you get through the nightmare that is Christmas for some DC with SN who can't cope with the unstructured 'fun.' Party days or non-uniform days were hard. It has got better now he's 24 but he still doesn't have a job and is completely nocturnal, but I don't have to worry about what he's up to as much. Just hope he's not getting scammed online again!

love and respect OP

Right there with you OP.

Some days we are dealing with more than anyone ever should have to. x

You're doing a good job.

I hear you. How old is your child OP? My sons escalated in their teens. Now they are in their early twenties, things are a little calmer (well, one is in supported accommodation). Last week the son I live with put his fist through the television screen out of some unrelated frustration, but it is nothing like it used to be.

Have you had a carers assessment?

I hear you. Also, the stimming noises which you can't ask for them to stop. It's difficult to put earplugs in because then I can't hear if they're damaging the house or running up behind me to slap my head or something.

You’re not alone OP