I do hear you Jacks, it's an impossibly hard situation.
I don't think there is any one right way of dealing with the cards I've been dealt. We will all react differently.
I have two options presently. I either quietly accept my fate and hope I survive long enough for them to secure me a date naturally or I do as I've been doing over the past 2 days and try every avenue to be heard and push.
Knowing I have three small children who depend on me, I just don't feel as though I can be quiet and do nothing.
Sure, me chasing up every day and trying other avenues to get the message across to the higher ups might do nothing at all, but just maybe it might.
Being blunt- would you want them to? Would you want to go to theatre knowing that the intensive care you need is not available to you? Or proceed knowing that someone who really ought to be there as part of the team providing your care is absent? What do you realistically expect them to do if the issue is related to lack of ICU beds (probably as a result of an emergency or someone already in ICU deteriorating/ taking longer to improve than expected)? I’m not trying to be rude or facetious, I’m just trying to be realistic about what you expect to happen here?
Perhaps they could get in touch with surrounding hospitals and try to secure me a bed there. I would gladly give my consent to be transported post op. This is what would happen in the event that my aneurysm ruptures anyway, isn't it?
Ditto enquiring whether the procedure can be done in a private hospital, IE the Wellington or Princess Grace (?) and then transfer out for ICU.
Not every ICU bed in the UK is full. I doubt every ICU bed in London is full.
I've been given two different reasons for the cancellation now. The first being that there's no available bed and then when talking to my consultants P.A today she has said that there is an additional complication of needing a set of specific individuals to be available on the day and for it all to tally up.
...so outsource the problem. Is it not possible to bring in people with the relevant experience from elsewhere. Doctors from across the world help far away patients all of the time. Would there really not be any qualified people in the whole of the UK?
My life has tremendous value as far as my children are donxerned. I just cannot come to terms with the potential that I might die thanks to bureaucracy.