Ok so a little background. I've always been outgoing, chatty, but never one to go out on the town, drinking etc. I've always liked going for meals, meeting for coffee etc, admittedly, some may find that a bit boring. I don't gossip, and I struggle to be around gossip type people, especially those who slate each other, but are then best friends to each others faces. I think I'm a nice person, I'm caring and will do anything for anyone.
Anywho, now I'm in my 30s and since covid, I feel no one really makes an effort anymore? I'm close to my mum and sister so do spend time with them. I began to realise I was always the one messaging/arranging things and these were either cancelled or people just didn't turn up so I stopped bothering and now I haven't heard from anyone for well over 2 years. I can't recall doing anything wrong to any of them, I just seem to have been cut out? Not even invited to their baby showers/birthdays etc, when I even arranged two of their previous baby showers, and did the food etc.
I would say my husband is my best friend, we've been together nearly 20 years, but he was unwell last year with cancer, luckily he's ok now but I realised at the time that I had no one to speak to other than family? I cared for him alongside doing everything for our kids too and I just felt really lonely.
Where have I gone wrong here? My husband is supportive and tries to get me out to make new friends, but I feel like I must be a really unlikable person?