To actually feel suicidal due to no sleep

[hunyouok]

I have not slept more than 3 hours for 14 months. Since my baby was born I'm in this living hell. It actually makes me suicidal and I have no idea what to do. Whenever you tell ppl they just kind of say oh it's baby's they'll grow out of it. I haven't had a single hours worth of sleep where he isn't on me in 14 months. I'm losing the will to live. No one understand and there's still massively high expectations from me.

@hunyouok

Hi OP,

I Hope you are doing ok. I posted a few weeks ago that my baby is exactly the same, and that sleep training didn’t work for him (and left me suicidal). After a sleep test and a consult with a paediatrician specializing in sleep disorders, it is now looking like he has sleep apnea. He doesn’t snore (which is why previous GPs have dismissed it) but does snuffle and often wakes up gasping. It is a humongous relief to know that there may be solutions to help him (and me) sleep, to be validated in feeling that it is not my fault, and to have a response for the sanctimonious sleep training evangelists.

At any rate, this sleep pattern is not normal and I strongly suggest you talk to your GP about it. Not just sleep apnea, but iron deficiency and some other conditions can cause frequent wakings. Do a bit of reading and see if any of it sounds familiar to you. Hopefully you will find a solution