I am a Christian but veered away from my faith for a long time. As a child I had a strong sense of God and my parents, who were pretty nominal, said I was always talking about Jesus. Everything fell by the wayside until 2014 when I couldn't get Jesus out of my mind. It was a slow process until 2017, when something supernatural happened, a kind of unbelievable healing in my life. Something inside of me was changing and I couldn't explain it. Every time I thought of Jesus, it felt like drinking a pint of ice cold water after being stuck in the desert. I'm sure I heard the Gospel a thousand times before, but I heard it for the 1001st time on Easter Sunday 2019 and suddenly it clicked, and I got it. My life has never been the same.
It is difficult to hold my views, to some degree, in the Western world. I think many people are very open to 'God' or 'The Universe', but can get a bit weird when you mention Jesus. Many of my views are counter cultural, traditional and very conservative. I tend not to speak about my faith unless asked, as I don't want to be seen as preachy, but I do want to share it with everyone. The thing is, I know that most people don't want to hear, so I respect that and take the lead of other people.
People think that having faith in God is an emotional crutch or a form of escapism. Trying to love your life true to Biblical principles and become more Christ-like is absolutely not for the faint hearted. However there is a depth and richness to it that is unparalleled by anything else. Since I became a believer, my world was turned on its axis. The entire focal point of my life is completely different. I feel like I spent my whole life rotating around the moon, and when I found Jesus, my entire orbit changed. Everything shifted. I have been sick the past few days, so can't muster up the language to describe how I conceptualise God.
My faith is so precious to me that I hate putting it out there, but I thought I would reply seeing as your post seems genuinely interested.