Hello!
Historically, I’ve had a very large appetite. When I was a child, we would have McDonalds literally 4 times per week and we would also eat sugary cereal, unlimited crisps and chocolate plus other takeaways (and we were encouraged to have a large pizza all to ourselves). I had no issue with this even though I was a child-it was delicious and fun to eat all that. This eating carried on until my early 30s as it was normal to me. I am overweight but not as badly as you’d think (weight 13.5 stone at 5’6”) and my weight does not fluctuate.
I got married yesterday and me and DH are having a mini moon. I have been eating less naturally as I’ve got older (now mid 30s). Partly because DH had a stomach condition where he can’t eat massive portions and partly because I wanted to trim some fat for the wedding (I did it and am 13 stone now and did look nice in my dress though I say so myself). I typically have weetabix or fruit for breakfast, salad or fish and veg for lunch and something like baked potato or sushi for dinner.
Because I’ve historically adored food and lots of it, I booked what I thought were normal but indulgent meals on this mini moon. Like a 3 course dinner yesterday and afternoon tea today. I’ve found it really really hard to eat though. I could only eat half my afternoon tea (even though I’m not having lunch or dinner today and I deliberately had a small breakfast and a walk to make space for afternoon tea). At our wedding dinner last night, I could only eat two courses and half a bottle of wine and I was uncomfortably full to the point it wasn’t nice. This was when I’d just had a cereal bar for lunch to make space!
It’s odd to me! Also, my mother (who I suspect had eating and drinking disorders among other things) would praise me for being ‘fun’ because she could always count on me to eat lots of food and be her drinking buddy. It was about the only thing she liked about me. I feel like I’m no fun now that I’ve got this mouse appetite. I think I’m being unreasonable because I can still be ‘fun’ without eating and drinking a lot.
I do see other people in the hotel tucking in to several helpings of breakfast and then large meals for lunch and dinner plus lots of alcohol throughout the day. The servers have seemed surprised when I’ve asked for the bill! I don’t know what to think.
YABU: Your appetite is too small now and maybe something is wrong.
YANBU: Your appetite is fine, it’s normal to get full after one course of food.