This might be a long one but don’t want to be accused of drip feeding! so here goes:
I'm really embarrassed of my car, it’s a decent average car not an expensive make at all but decent enough. The issue is it’s rusting away and has lots of dents. The last straw for me was last week when the back of it hung off! I tried to repair it with superglue which did the job but again this morning it’s hanging off. I feel embarrassed doing the school run even more tomorrow now. I don’t have enough money to get it repaired at the garage.
Tried to speak to husband but his reaction was if I’m so bothered I should f*ing pay for it. I work part time due to childcare but I’m planning to go back to work FT when youngest is in school. Honestly I don’t have much left over after nursery fees.( We only get 15 hours as DH is a high earner).
I gave up a career to raise our kids and my husband earns a lot of money - he’s a partner so you can imagine on his wage we could easily afford a nice car but he refuses as he uses the tube all the time and rarely drives.
I’ve changed my username but in the past I have posted about him which some might remember that he was giving random women on the internet thousands of pounds in return for nothing. You all helped me and told me it was “findom” and he’s getting off on it. I know he’s really creepy and I know the reaction was to leave which I can’t right now. I will at done point but not right now.
what upsets me is I feel I’m living like this with no money, no decent clothes and a crappy car whilst he does whatever he wants with his money. I’m really fed up. I actually want to write more but I just can’t get the words out, sorry it might become a drip feed as I try to find the right words I’m trying to use.
my question is what must other parents think of me? My 2 eldest kids go to a private school and I see the looks I get from the mums when I turn up in my banger! I know I shouldn’t care what others think but it’s embarrassing. I try to avoid eye contact when I’m there and it’s affecting my self esteem. I just don’t know if I’m being unreasonable in wanting him to at least get the car repaired if not buy a decent one. I kind of feel he’s getting some kind of satisfaction seeing me in this position, I know the other mums definitely judge me especially as I look a mess on most days due to feeling utterly fed up, please be kind!