Ok, I know I am, but still..

[nutcracker]

Today I found out how much xp will be getting in a lump sum of his pension and all I can think is, why does nice stuff happen to shite people.

Ok ok it's his, he worked for it etc etc, but he will waste it, won't pay any of his debts off etc etc, and I will still be sat here struggling from week to week. Obviously had we been together, we'd have spent it on the house, new car, holiday etc, and although no amount of money is worth being with him, I still feel shite.

My mum has now said that she thinks I should just ask him for a certain amount of it and see what he says.

Why do I feel like that is too cheeky ??

Wouldn't know how much to ask for anyway.

It is not cheeky.

It is your children's right to have the things they need. Including a stair carpet.

Yeah you are right I know.

I dunno, might make a list later of what we desperatly need and see what it comes too.

I supose I'd like to think that he will just offer it to us, but thats mad isn't it, cos he won't.

Just tell him his children need x y and z and he needs to pay for it. Easy for me to say I know.

Have just had to remove a splinter from dd1's foot, that she got on the stairs

I will make a list and then see if I have the nerve to give it to him.

My mum wants me to ask for a couple of grand, but we'll see.

Come on. You had the nerve to separate, you can do this. You and your kids deserve it!

shy bairns get nowt-do it make him justify why he won't spend money on his children if he refuses.

My friend is jumping up and down wanting me to ask him co she wants me to go on her hen weekend in March LOL.

LOL can you imagine his face if I spent it on that.

Ask yourself how rich he would have to be to make you get back with him.
Millions? Squillions?
Am I making his lump sum seem like a teeny bit of money that isn't worth bothering about?
(insert hopeful face symbol here!!!)

Oh i have already told him that no amount of money could make me get back with him, and I do mean that.

Not sure it is fair to say how much it is, but it is somewhere between £20000 and £28000, plus a smaller amount of around £4000 a year.

I just text him with an amount that I feel would cover what i need to buy and allow me to pay off certain debts that were run up whilst he was here.

He has text back ok, but I don't trust him so, we'll see.

why is he getting his pension now? how old is he?

50, it's his company pension from a place he worked at for 23 years.

I did tell him he should leave it where it is until he is 60 but he won't.

oh I see
and he's going to live off that from now on?

Well thats what he thinks yeah but it will be gone in 6mths tops.