I lost my dad before Christmas, I buried him last Thursday. We adored each other and it’s been so very hard. I have 2 SEN children and a stressful job as an assistant head. I work full time. I haven’t been myself since he died, I know that. I have had to sort my mum and arrange the funeral. It’s always been at the back of my mind. At a staff meeting last week the whole staff criticised me for not supporting the head enough. Before I lost my dad I was told I was doing too much and to slow down by the same people.
I took a week off on stress after that (it helped me to sort the final arrangements for dad’s funeral which was that week) my husband works away regularly and only came back at 10pm the night before the funeral.
I always described myself as totally passionate about teaching but it’s gone. Some of the children took advantage while I wasn’t myself and I had behaviour management issues for the first time in my 15 year career.
I can’t do this any more. I’ve got nothing left to give.