My Mum's funeral today and terrified to sleep please can somebody talk to me

[toastywarmslippers]

I am utterly exhausted after weeks of watching my mum die. Funeral today. My DP has finally had to go home for work after weeks away and I am in an Airbnb alone.

There is some arsehole fucking roaring up and down the street outside every now and again, and I am on the verge of sobbing in fear, I am at the end of my rope and need to relax and sleep and terrified he will break in and fucking stab me or something.

I just need to sleep I am so sleep deprived and wrung out.

Oh, Toasty, dear, I'm so sorry for your loss. Of course you aren't going mad.

You are exhausted, destroyed with grief, and very alone because your DP has had to leave. Of course your nerves are stretched, and you are in a state of terror - I would be, too. Many of us would, especially when you have such a painful day ahead of you, but everything looks better in daylight.

I hope you managed to get reasonably comfortably through the night. You will get through today and will be in your own warm, safe bed tonight.

I will be holding you in my prayers today (I hope you don't mind that.)

@toastywarmslippers Just wanted to check in with you OP to see how you are after your mum's funeral and to remind you to take care of yourself. I hope you have a good supportive network around you. 💐