I've been at my place of work in the public sector for over 10 years. I was called into senior management recently. Before getting the message to see them, I wasn't told why. Various things were discussed, some things I understand their reasoning (e.g. getting in a bit earlier). I agree with them, I do need to. However various other things were said to me that were quite picky, unfair and not my fault. The only way management would have been aware about these things would have been through a colleague. I think I know who but not 100% sure. Why could this person not have come to me directly? It feels like someone has gone behind my back to get me in trouble. As I said, I get the time thing but actually there's a bit more going on.
I've got all sorts of personal problems at the moment. I've not been well, the last few months have been particularly hard. One of my dcs was in hospital recently. We're also trying to adapt to neurodiversity diagnoses made recently in the family. There's more than one of us!
I've told someone in management about these things so they're aware. However if the colleague who has gone behind my back, had come to me first, I could have explained these things. Particularly as some of the things I was talked to about were minor. Now, I've basically had a telling off from the top and it's increased my stress levels. I feel uncomfortable at work now, like I'm being watched by others. Like I'm not good enough to be there. It's horrible. I'm now worrying that they'll get rid of me at some point if I'm not up to scratch. Everyone is nice to your face but there's obviously more going on beneath the surface.
AIBU to feel betrayed?