I have a few chronic conditions and one of them creates a pain that mimics a heart attack and it can go on for days ( I know it’s not a heart attack so I will stay at home for as long as I can in agony in case it eases off - sometimes it does so of it’s own accord but it’s very unpredictable)
I have a pain protocol put in place by my pain consultant a few years ago and have had to enact it probably 3/4 times a year. This means when it’s clear it’s not subsiding, I need acute care in the form of IV pain management plus an oxycodone injection - all of which helps me to cope until the pain drops to a level I can manage at home, where I remain on bed rest for however many days.
Now here’s the stickler - IV pain relief and the oxy injection can ONLY be done by A and E. I’ve rang the MIU places nearby and both have said nope, you must attend A and E as they aren’t equipped. Our local A and E is hell on Earth currently - as an ex NHS HCA I know well what that means…. I do not want to add to the problem so I sit at home in full flare and in agonising pain for days because that’s still better than waiting in A and E but sometimes I give in to the pain and get my treatment as prescribed.
I hate going over there, I hate being a burden BUT the last two times I’ve been in I’ve been on a hard chair or the floor for hours yet there’s been drunks laying on beds sleeping happily!!!! Makes me fucking rage!!! It shouldn’t be allowed. It’s not fair that I have a condition through no fault of my own - one that’s ruined my career, my mental health and my life - yet put off going for the treatment I need at A and E because I know what he’ll awaits me and the stress of seeing people there lounging around, snapping at the amazing staff and being generally cuntish and abusive to them when they’ve got too pissed or too high and can’t handle themselves…. Where’s the fucking personal responsibility here?!?
I have had to completely change my life to lessen the risk of serious flares, and my co diction has now led to several others being discovered last year. Yet I feel guilty as hell when I DO access the service and now I’m thinking, “why the hell should I feel bad when there’s utterly irresponsible arseholes out there who take ZERO responsibility for their own health?!”
And to be fair, that’s not just drunks and people on drugs - there’s a fair few out there who really should be taking their health seriously and don’t and then expect the NHS to pick up the pieces time and time again - it’s bloody wrong.
Sorry for the rant but I’m flaring at the moment - luckily a low level one with pain of 6/7 which is just above my daily level… but I worry it’ll escalate as it sometimes does and how the hell I going to access the medication I need and is onl6 available at one place which currently has 18 ambulances outside plus all the other people inside?! Scary, upsetting but also ridiculous that a GP or OOH Dr can’t give me an injection elsewhere!