Hello,
This is not my first thread about my abusive ex. I left him in August and there has been a catalogue of stalking and harassment, including smashing my car and threatening to kill me. I'm a teacher and today I checked my phone at the end of the day and I had messages from a drug dealer, telling me that my abusive ex has stole £2400 off him to fund his crack addiction, and gave the dealer my full address. Cue panic attack as the dealer tells me he's going to trash my entire home unless I pay the money. He then lets me know that my abusive ex has been with another girl the last two years (he also sent me her number, cheers for that).
Now, I rang the police 4 hours ago and they still haven't got back to me. My parents installed CCTV and I am safe at my dad's. But I am fucking broken. Suicidal. How do I process this? I'm no longer safe in the home that I worked so hard to buy (I'm only 25) but also how do I accept that he was with someone else the whole time? It breaks me. Of course I still have love for him.
I need to move on completely, from tomorrow. No contact. Block everyone. Change my number. Change my email.
Please tell me I can do this?